Bowling be like..

"good morning beautiful"

my hair tickled me again as i opened my eyes, facing the morning sun that managed to push through the curtains. Today was the day i would give Dasom her jacket back. A chance for me to make a move. Only thinking what my members would do when i tell them that it didn't work because i was to shy, gave me the courage to make a plan. I grabbed my hoodie from yesterday and pulled it over my head. The following glance in the mirror made me realise how messy my hair actually was. I pulled some hair and decided that it was time for a haircut. I planned to call the hairdresser this afternoon after the successful meet up with Dasom.

It was absolutely necessary for me to get a coffee now because my night wasn't the best i ever had, which i kind of expected. I know from myself that i usually dream about things i cant explain or about incidents that happened during the day, most of the time unexpectedly. As i fell asleep yesterday evening i did so with the anticipation of a nice dream but instead i didn't dream the whole night. My mind was a dark hole without any emotion or thought process. As i was watching myself in the mirror while my mind took over a new emotion established. Fear.

There he was. The jisung i searched for while waking up, the jisung i was so used to. Somehow he got lost in the night and had a sudden confidence boost because the jisung i knew only came back seconds ago. I suddenly was afraid that she wasn't at home or wouldn't have enough time for me. I didn't know what amount of time would be enough for me to be satisfied in that second, i only knew that i wouldn't like if she just took the jacket and closed the door again. The sudden wave of fear made ma insecure so i called mark.

"Hyung. i'm not sure anymore" "Good morning lover boy" he said, his voice still rusty from the night. "Hyung" "okay listen jisung. You were so confident yesterday, wheres that boy now?" Yep exactly what i thought as well. "Yk i just looked at myself in the mirror and all the confidence i talked myself into. poof gone." i heard a sigh from the other side and ruffling that indicated that he at least sat up in his bed. "Have you seen the look she gave you as u told us that you would bring her home? That look doesn't lie Jisung. Go there and get your girl, c'mon." His support has always given me so much strength but especially today. A smiled formed on my lips as i hung up and mentally prepared for the meeting.

After i ruffled through my hair once again i closed the door only to notice that the whole reason for this was still peacefully laying on my chair where i left it yesterday evening. The luck was on my side this morning because after reaching in my pocket i felt the clammy metal of my keys and solely that made me exhale the air i didn't know i was holding in.

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"Okay how do i do this now" i spoke to myself as i was standing in front of her house, debating how to get her out. I could attempt the old-fashioned way and throw rocks but that option rapidly vanished as i noticed that i didn't know which one of the many windows belonged to her. The second option would be to just call her but i also decided that it would be too risky as she could still be asleep. Occupied with my thoughts i didn't notice that the front door suddenly opened revealing a small girl in a white blouse and black pleated pants.

"oh hi jisung, what are you doing here this early in the morning?" she said with a soft smile. I got startled especially since she looked like she was about to attend a business meeting. "Good morning beautiful" Did i really just say that... i thought while my breath got stuck in my throat causing me to clear it. Judging by her reaction she was also surprised and her cheeks turned soft pink while i was able to see her shy smile. For some seconds the air was filled with silence, before i took a breath and broke the silence. "I was about to give back your jacket. You left it in the bowling booth yesterday" after the words had left my mouth i saw her eyes light up. "Really?! thank you so much. I was searching for it because it is part of my work clothes and i desperately needed it today. In fact i still do" she giggled after a short pause. Handing her the jacket i asked "oh that means you're on your way to work rn?" a tint of sadness unintentionally mixed with my voice revealing my disappointment. my plans of using today to spend some time with her were gone, until she said "yea sadly, but its a nice walk. You could accompany me if you'd like"