Dull

Prologue

heyyy
i am aware that it has been forever since I've updated but here i am

i just honestly needed a break

get ready for some angst lol

1ST POV
pain was something that i had been accustomed to since the moment i made my first memory

but no, how could a child of a wealthy person live a bad life?

you are just selfish

those were the words that were thrown at me

and i thought

maybe they were right

so i lived my life thinking that this is how it should be

how dare i think that i was in pain

i wasn't starving nor was i being bullied

i was pretty, i was smart

so how can i be in pain?

the only thing i was, was selfish

and maybe i was

but it didn't change the fact that i felt pain

and suddenly everything was incredibly dull

i no longer enjoyed things i usually did, instead they were dull

i didnt find joy in things, and when i did, it only took a little bit before they also turned dull

so i did everything i could to chase that hapiness

i vaped

i smoked

but none of it worked, it turned just turned dull like everything else

i tried everything that wouldn't be too harmful, but i wasn't enough

i was never enough

so i turned to the last thing i could

lines started appearing on my wrist and thighs

but everything was too much

my head hurt so much so grabbed the pills and swallowed them until I could no longer feel myself

HOW TRAGIC
A BIRD WI-
-THOUT
THEIR
WINGS

HOW
DULL

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this story has come a long way but im actually really happy with the plot this time around :)

stay hydrated <3

-EmotionlessSelf