Always (Crosshair x Jedi Reader)

Part 6

(Y/N) had caught glimpses of Crosshair throughout the time on the battlefield. The group of five had been deployed from Kamino months ago, since then it had been on battlefield after another, Christophsis, Ryloth, several outer rim planets, even Bracca. It wasn't much of a wonder when the relief washed over the five when they were given word they were being re-directed towards Coruscant for a well earned rest. Two weeks away from the battlefield. Hunter had stated he would finally be getting the tattoo he had talked of, although he had yet to decide exactly what said tattoo was. Crosshair had hummed in agreement although said little of it as his focus was instead on his Jedi General as it had been every quiet moment since the deployment. Tech had expressed interest on exploring Coruscant, as if he was a tourist rather than a soldier, where as Wrecker wanted to visit 79's and have a good time.

(Y/N) on the other hand would be off to the Temple in order to debrief and relax a little, she could finally meditate and work out what was causing her to become distracted. The only other to know about her concerns was Anakin, who had worked it out quickly but said nothing. After all he'd been through it and solved it by breaking the Jedi Code and marrying the woman he loved so much. Despite that he had offered his support and advice, even when he had figured out the one to cause the distraction was none other than the cold sharp shooter.

The moment the Ghost Marauder landed on Coruscant the five aboard felt relief. How could they not, there was no battle field waiting this time, it was just the normal core world whom had not seen the effects of the war. The world was far from where the war was raging on, thrust the citizens of it only heard of the chaos happening everywhere else. It was late after noon when they landed, Hunter silently leading his remaining three brothers to their barracks within the military facility. (Y/N) headed to the transport waiting for her, already feeling tired but knew the debriefing had to be done, after all it was virtually mandatory, if only they those within the temple knew where she had been and what she had done during each and every assignment.

Only when she got back to her quarters did she feel calmness take over her. She felt herself focus as she positioned herself ready to meditate, if only so she could finally answer the question on what had been distracting her and why. Although she had faced difficult challenges in the past, nothing compared to this. Those she had figured out and overcome them once finding the solution, but this one stumped her. She couldn't figure out what distracted her and she could shake how uneasy that made her. How was she to do her job if something was blocking her, it scared her, made her doubt herself and her abilities. Although Anakin had helped in terms of advice, he hadn't shared what he believed was causing it. Even when she had long since figured out he knew. Instead he seemed to pity her, as if he knew how it would eventually end.

"Concentrate (Y/N). Let the force flow through you. Focus" whispered (Y/N) to herself, hoping the quietness of the room would allow her to find the root of her problem, or at least get her closer to it. Yet as she did she felt odd, as if someone was watching her, even when she knew the room was empty besides herself. Yet as she turned she realized she wasn't alone, but Master Yoda had joined her, it being clear he had sensed her troubles. (Y/N) nodded with silence as he asked the equally wordless request to join her in meditating. The silence was comforting between the two. Yoda seemed to be trying to reading her, although she didn't mind as it may help to get the answers she was looking for.

"Confused are you?" asked Yoda, as if reading her mind. (Y/N) seem almost surprised but nodded none the less. If she was honest, she felt almost lost, the distraction doing little to help the already unease of war or the lack of trust she knew others in the temple had in her. She most believed she would eventually turn on them, she was the daughter of Maul after all, a known and once dangerous Sith Lord. "If lost you feel. Allow the force to guide you, help you find your way again it can" added the wise master, often times had he sensed her feelings. Although some were concerning he knew most of them time she reflected others emotions away. Although a rare gift he knew it was dangerous, especially when it could make it difficult to decipher what she truly felt. Yet he knew in times like this he could gauge her true feelings. With little difficulty he could sense her uncertainty and anger. He could feel just how lost she felt. As if she didn't know who she was anymore let alone where she truly belonged.

"Embrace your abilities (Y/N). A Jedi Knight and a Sith Princess. A rare combination. Believing in yourself is the key, embrace your status as a Grey Jedi" advised Yoda, teaching her a small lesson with it. As well as showing the young Jedi knight not all mistrusted her or judged her with fear. Some seen her for the woman she had grown into rather than the Sith Apprentice she had once been. (Y/N) could only really nod, leaving the room moments later, doing as advised and allowing the force to guide her to where she was meant to be, even when she had no idea where that was. Yet she began to suspect others did. Those who had watched her for so long, both friends and enemies within the temple.

Crosshair wondered through the brightly light city streets with Hunter, the pair having left the military base with Tech whom had been insisting on exploring the planet wide city. At first the sharp shooter had put the wonder down to wanting to clear his head, the thoughts to be haunting his every waking moment and his sleepless nights. Although he found the dreams regarding (Y/N) were a welcome change from the nightmares of the cadet training before she had arrived. Yet even he would admit he had become distracted by the young Jedi Knight. It was obvious enough Hunter had noticed but stayed quiet, Tech to had made a few off handed comments on the obvious attraction, although it had thrust far been lost on Wrecker.

The two troopers soon entered the tattoo pallor, finding a few other regular clones picking out ink to psychically separate them from their brothers. Crosshair could only look around, already having an idea what sort of tattoo he wanted. Although he had yet to speak a word of it out loud. Hunter on the other hand had mentioned something that would be noticeable, already stating it would be somewhere on his face. Almost like it was a silent agreement between the two to get one in a similar area. In a kind of way, the trooper known as Jesse having seemingly inspired them with their decision.

"Any ideas on what to get and where" asked Hunter, as the duo waited for their turn in the chair. In a way he dreaded the pain and wanted to distract himself, his silver haired brother by his side seemingly unfazed by the idea of pain, although it wasn't anything new for either of them. Even now the memories of the many tests and crying himself to sleep as a cadet haunted the Sargent.

"My name sake" responded Crosshair, point to his right eye in response to the placement. To him it would mean something, not only was it his name sake, but it was an instrument he used so often with his rifle. Hunter could only nod as the two step up as the next customers. Both brothers stating what they wanted and where, mentally preparing themselves for the pain even if it didn't effect them all that much. The pair already knew Wrecker had plans to drag both of them and Tech out to 79's later that night, thrust they knew they would have to suck it up when it come to the pain. Although Crosshair found himself silently hoping he would meet a certain Jedi Knight there, even if the odds were against it.