|| Chocolate and Mint choco || Ciipher oneshot

⛓ Hwi ≠ Loving the hurts ⛓

Warning ; Self harm, suicide and uncomfortable.

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Sitting infront of his birthday cake he sigh. Regret. That's all he could say after breaking up with his girlfriend.

After 6 Months of being a lovely couple, Hwi felt that his loves for her is fading. And for both of their good, they break up.

Of course the girl shocked. They just fine another day and suddenly he wants to break up. But what can she said she just left him with a heavy heart.

But right now he start to feel empty. The emptiness in his heart without his present there. He starts to feel annoyed with the loud silence in his apartment.

He feel that he really hate loneliness.
He is the one who leave him but why did he is the one who felt hurt? Why?

Isn't he is the one with the fading feelings? and isn't he is the first one who said that they can't be with each other and sent the boy away with his eyes?

Slowly regreting everything he does. He stood up and drink the water rapidly. Non - stop. Everything he does is disappointing. Even been birth in this world. He can't even get anythings right.

He take the jar and go straight outside his house and pouring the water at the flowers. Doing it with a cold face he disappointed at himself.

How can he let someone he loves go away being an emptiness he try to hide. He felt useless. Walking to his kitchen he put the jar back and start playing with a rubber in his living room.

He tried to be perfect but nothings seems right. Everything is awful.

He just want to be happy, is it that hard? He look at the view outside and smile remembering the memory of he and his friends playing, running and laughing around. Everyone look happy even him. But that doesn't last long as every one of them start to leave each other, one by one.

Start with the oldest- Tan. Tan is the rule model in the group. How he can take care for everyone and remembering every important things about every of them. But that doesn't last long as he drown himself in a sink.

It was a hurtful memory thinking about the oldest leave them in such a state.

But from that Hyunbin had the most saddest death. For the others, Tag, Dohwan and Won all the three death from suicide. As Tag jumped of a cliff, Dohwan stab himself and Won shoot himself to death.

Hyunbin die from a car crash. Living in a painful family his parents always arguing. Without thinking about their son condition. One day Hyunbin drove away gave up with his parents he stole his fathers car key and drove to an unkwon place. But happy wasn't on his side as the car crash onto a trees in a middle of nowhere.

The only left is Hwi and Keita. Well Keita wasn't in a good condition as he now in a mental hospital. He tried to suicide but he failed as a neighboor help him. He now in a Hospital where he try to recover from all the past and the memory of his friends.

Hwi doesn't want to left Keita alone as he scared that if he go Keita conditions will be worst.

Hwi run to his room and smile remembering the memory of Keita playing with his shirt, dancing around happily. That's the last memory of him with Keita before Keita tried to suicide.

He knew that the emptiness in his heart isn't because of the girl, but because of the younger. Keita.

He loves Him. And the feelings never faded. He tried to ignore the feelings with trying to loving someone else. But of course it's all impossible as he start to loves the younger from the beginning.

Hwi go back to his cake and lighten up the candle. Closing his eyes he wish, I hope Keita will recover and everything will be just like the start. Although without others.

He open his eyes and blew the candle off. Hoping that his wish will be a reality in this hurtful loves.

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Saturday 17, July 2021
1:05 p.m.

Hwi ≠ Loving the hurts