Up to me

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I am busy enjoying myself at the beach waiting for the sunset to come. Everyone else is minding their own business while I try to roam my eyes around the place.

A familiar guy is walking towards me and I'm not sure if he was the guy I was fangirling over for like 6 years before since I'm not wearing my glasses. I didn't wear contact lenses cause I'm gonna take a dip while watching the sunset. I feel so blind right now.

Instead of overthinking, I decided to look back and wait for the sunset to appear. I grabbed my can of beer and got my relx. I stopped smoking for a year already but I've got myself a relx in exchange for cigarettes.

I stood up and started walking my way to the beach holding the can of beer in my right hand while the relx is in my left hand. I didn't bring my phone with me cause I would love to enjoy the view using my eyes and not through the screen of my phone.

I didn't go any further. I just wanted to sit in the beach and not swim even though I know how. The sunset is slowly appearing and I can't help but adore the view. This is immaculate!

"Sorry, are you alone?" a familiar voice caught my attention and I quickly turned to see if he was talking to me. Yes, indeed.

"Giovanni?" Parang siyang sigaw when I asked but I swear super hina ng voice ko.

"You know me?" He asked in a surprising tone.

"Yea. Sort of." I mean dude? I was fangirling over him for how many years. Of course I know him.

"Are you a fan of mine?" He was hesitant that I feel like I need to lie. So I said no. Well, it's half true naman. I stopped fangirling over him like 2 years ago. He had a girlfriend and he had loveteams also. Like the normal showbiz life in the Philippines.

"Good to know. Can I sit beside you?" I shrugged and eventually said yes. Ba't pa ako aayaw? This has been my dream for like 6 years at ngayon na andito na infront of me? There's no way I'd decline.

"Waiting for the sunset?" He's still handsome grabe. Kahit naka specs siya, I can see right through him. Grabe, ang pogi. Kung pwede lang tumili at sumigaw but I'd scare him if I'd do that.

"Yes. Ikaw? Wait, are you alone?" Makikichismis lang naman ako. Feeling close ako eh. Pake nya ba? joke.

"Same. Yes. Actually, ikaw pa lang nakakakilala sakin here. So please, don't tell anybody or post in social media that I'm here if that's okay with you. I mean I can't make you not post anything sa gwapo kong to'." Napatingin agad ako sa gawi nya.

"What?" He chuckled.

"Joke lang." Then he smiled. Oh godz. That smile!! That's one of the reason why I fell for him. I had to do stupid things just so I could have a picture of him way back. I pleaded pa sa dad nya to get a picture with him. Yes, I'm that fangirl.

"Don't worry. I respect your privacy. Also, I only have facebook and instagram. Private pa both so wala ka talagang maasahan from me." I smiled to make him feel better and secured.

They are normal people din naman. They go out and enjoy the beach once in a while without people wanting to ask for a picture or whatsoever. That's just too tiring. Everyone needs rest and that includes him.

"So what's your name? Btw, you have this accent when you speak tagalog. You're not from manila noh?" Lord, am I dreaming? Wake me up pls, now na.

"I'm Saviannah. And yep, I'm from Cebu." He nodded.

"I love cebu. I love my fans here. They're just so supportive of me. I love going back from time to time. I admire the people, the beaches, the scenery, everything. Actually, I have a plan on staying here for good but it would be complicated. I work in Manila so I have to be there." He drank his can of beer. I just realized now he was holding one pala.

I puff my relx and drank my beer too before answering him. Syempre, I need to make myself calm. This isn't a dream. This. is. really. happening.

"You smoke?" Gulat nyang tanong.

"Yes, before. This is a vape but yea nicotine pa din. Anyway, Cebu's really a good place. Don't worry when you're in cebu, you can stay in my house so that you can save." I joked. Just to lighten up the surrounding.

"I would love to. San ba?" I chuckled. "Joke lang. Stay in the hotel na. You're rich naman eh." I countered.

"Ano ba yan. I could use that savings sa ibang bagay." I shook my head. "Sus, ikaw ha." ang tanging na sagot ko.

"I love your tattoos. What's the meaning of those? Minimalist ha." I swear this guy is more curious than me. Well, as much as I want to ask him. I have to be careful of my words din.

"Well the bird at my back, it means freedom. I've always had my freedom and for that I'm really thankful. While these on my bra line the other one I'm sure you know the meaning of that."

"Yea, God is greater than my highs and lows." I nodded and continued. "While the other one is a french word it means don't forget to live. This one naman on my chest it's also a french word it means I am enough. And lastly, a wave cause I love the ocean. I love the beach." Napansin ko din na he has tattoos.

"Yours?"

"I have 6. I have a palm tree, same as yours. I love the beach. A moon, just a different phase of my life. A dove for purity, A bible verse that is close to my heart and also my fave one, A portrait of my family and lastly, an alibata which means strong." Alam ko yung meaning nong iba but I've seen three tattoos of him lang sa interviews nya. Now, I've seen the other three with my own eyes.

Swerte ko naman today. Ako na ata pinaka swerteng fangirl.

"That's cute. Do you have plans to get another one?" I asked. "Yes, but only if you're gonna get one, too. My treat." I shook my head.

"What? Wag na. Sayang sa pera." Well, gusto ko naman. But I don't want him to decide right away. After all, he's a public figure.

"C'mon. Don't be a kj. It's on me. Think of a design. When we get back to cebu, let's get one." Wala na akong nagawa at tumango nalang.

"You don't accept no as an answer noh?" He pat my head and smiled "You're getting to know me." He countered.

"Fine. It's getting dark na. I'll get my dinner in a while. How bout you?" I stood up and slowly walked towards the sand.

"Let's get dinner together. Kawawa ka naman mag isa ka lang." He commented. "Excuse me, I can handle myself being alone. Ikaw yata yung hindi?" He chuckled. "Ouch, you don't wanna get dinner with me? Andaming gusto makipag dinner sakin tapos ik — " i cut him off by covering his mouth.

"Oo na. Alam mo ikaw." Hindi ko na tinuloy yung sasabihin ko and got my cover up.

"Cheers, muna." pag interrupt nya sakin while I was fixing my cover up.

"Cheers." we drank the beer at inubos na rin namin yon before we threw it.

We started walking towards the restaurant and we just talked about silly things along the way.

"Are you sure no one knows you here?" I asked again. "I mean what if there are other people na would take a pic of us and then post it somewhere? I mean you might get in trouble." I added.

"It's okay. You're worth the trouble, anyway."

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