Leave me alone (a cameron dallas imagine)

Chapter 29

I laid on my bed thinking about what to say to Cameron. He won't be angry anyways because he probably already hates me. God why can't we just not look at other people and be ourselves. I decided to call Cameron and talk to him.

C- Hey You finally called!
y/n- Yeah so um we need to talk.
C- sure
y/n- Uh I think we need to take a break. All we do is fight and ...
C- a break? We don't need a break we just need to not look at other people and pay attention to ourselves.
y/n- Cam you know i love you. You know what i've been through. I can't. I can't do this anymore.
C- Babe. You can't run away from us. We had something. We have something come on babe.
y/n- Cam. I don't know.
C- Let's take a break from the world not us.
y/n- no i need this. Please. Just let me go.
C- You're joking right? Let go of a girl who changed my life?
y/n- cam pls
C- No. I'm not giving up on us. So suck it up cause i'm still here.
y/n- Can I call you later?
C- (Y/N) come on I....

And I hung up the phone. What if Cameron was wrong? What if we really do need to break up. I mean after all those fights. After all the times he got jealous. Cameron isn't for me. He won't ever be. He's just some guy I was obsessed with and we dated and it didn't turn out like i wanted it to.

Love is something so different. Love is not crying over how I talk to Matt. Love is Cameron and I relaxing in bed together. Love is Cameron trusting me.

Love isn't Cameron and me.

This is me being bipolar. From loving him to hating him to wanting to be with him again. I can't. Cameron isn't for me.

I threw my phone beside me and looked at the ceiling. It was our time to have a break. It's over. Really. It is.

cam💕- Please (y/n) just think about us. I love you.

Did I love cameron? Was it true we really did rush into things?

I can't think about this anymore. I need a break.

***** a week later *****

Okay. Today was the day we left for magcon again. The day I get to see Cameron, Sam, and Matt.

I reached the hotel first. No one was there and the group chat had no messages which meant everyone was either coming in later or were still on the plane. I went to my hotel room and opened up the cute letter our manager always leaves everyone. It is more of a schedule than a letter but still. She always started it off with a cute message about how she loves us all and then we got our schedule.

I always roomed with mahogany but this till she chose not to room with me. So a two bed hotel room all for me. Cameron was coming in soon and I wanted to eat and sleep before he could come and find me.

I ordered my room service and had grabbed a movie.

Cam💕: I'm here guys!! See y'all upstairs. Bless!

I didn't bother telling him I was there I really didn't want anyone to know. I fell asleep right after I ate so I could be well rested for a draining day tomorrow.

MattCHEW: i'm here :)
Cartizzle: Me too! Me too!
Samuel👅: Same here

I woke up to texts from basically the whole squad here. I got out of bed and went to go face my fears. I knew everyone was on the same floor as me because we always are. I walked out to Matts room first. It is always beside mine.

"(Y/N) YOU ARE HERE!" Matt said hugging me, "missed ya." He smiled at me and I made small talk. A bunch of the boys joined except cameron. He wasn't there in Matt's room. He probably fell asleep or something.

After putting all my energy into the conversations with everyone I left Matts room. Of course. Right before I leave I get hit with Cameron. I smiled at him and he gave me a little shrug. Me and him are not at a place to talk at all. He isn't mine anymore. I'm not his.

I can't be with him and he can't be with me. Love between us is determined by the people around us. I left to my room and went on with my life. Cameron and I are finally over. Done. Finished.

Author's Note:
Expect a new chapter if you guys show some love and tell me if you're still interested in this story! :)