Tell Me Lies

Ok, so sometimes I just want to experience what girls in the books and movies experience you feel me? Your probably thinking, what do you mean experience what the girls in books and movies experience? Like seriously I don't know why I just do. I've always wanted to experience heartbreak. I want to experience that moment where I catch my boyfriend fiddling with some bitch that's not me...the heart break. Is it weird that I WANT to experience heartbreak? I've never really knew how it felt before because every guy says the same exact thing to me...'Your different, your not like them other girls' and that's when they fall in love. Do I need to change myself or something? However, that's another story for another time. I want that relationship where I love him but I know he's cheating, and I know he's a fuck boy. I want him to tell me those sweet simple lies of 'I love you', 'I need you', 'Your my one and only', 'I would never cheat on you', and 'I will love you no matter what'. Just tell me lies! Make it all sound good. Even if I know you don't mean it. I know you guys are reading this and is like 'this bitch is dumb'. You probably just don't get it. I mean I'm not dumb, I just want to know that feeling, you know? Is it wrong for wanting to know how it feels, when you've never felt it before but seen other people experience it? Shit. Tell me lies... Please? Maybe I've read too many books, or just watched way too many clichéd movies. Idk, but whatever it is, it has me thinking.