𝐋𝐎𝐕𝐄𝐒𝐓𝐑𝐔𝐂𝐊, Jean K

chapter 14

Warning! Contain mentions of mental illness. (Just in case anyone is triggered by the mentioning it)

"Why don't you just tell him how you feel?" Marco said still speaking softly towards me.
"But I don't know how I feel? I mean... I have felt like this before but the last time I did...I got hurt..." I frowned looking down at the floor. "Ah, I see..." Marco sighed. "Look, I get it but you can't live in fear for your whole life, it's too short. I know you've been told some bad stuff about Jean but he is a really good guy and I think someone like you could help him for the better."
"Help him?" I questioned, looking back up at him.
"Yeah... He's just lost himself and has fallen a hole and needs help to get him out of it. He's depressed, after losing his Dad he turned to alcohol and weed, sleeping around, pushing his friends away to take his pain away..."

"He's depressed...? That's why he changed? Why don't the others know that? How do you know that?" I rambled, Marco cut me off. "Hey, hey..." He kept a soft tone. "Let me explain, yes. He told me when we talked about everything a few weeks ago and no they don't know that, he doesn't want them to know, he doesn't want to use it as an excuse or for them to just pity him."
"They would only try to help him...? They would've understood..."
"I know, I said that but he's stubborn" He sighs and I sighed too. "I had no idea... I guess no one did."
"Yeah... Don't tell him I told you but I felt like you should know"
"Yeah, I won't" I smile weakly. "I appreciate you telling me."
"No problem..." He smiled softly. "But now back to you; tell him how you feel."
"But he has a girlfriend? That's disrespectful." Marco chuckles as a response.

"What?" I raised a brow at him. "They're not dating, she just said that to probably get under your skin"
"Oh that makes sense, sounds like something she would do" I laugh slightly, He laughs back as a response.

We ended up talking for a bit longer, I said my goodbye and hugged Marco before I left for another class. I sat down at a desk and took out a notebook to take down notes as the teacher spoke.

I felt my phone buzz, I took it out of my pocket and saw a message from Horseface.

Horseface
Meet me at the water fountain at 4, we need to talk

I swallows nervously and texted back:

Me
Okay, i'll see you then
seen 1min ago

After my class finished, I went back to my dorm to shower and change into more comfortable clothes. I put on a black tank top and grey nike sweatpants. I didn't tell Sasha where i was going, I felt bad not telling her anything but I had a feeling she would tell Connie then he would tell everyone. It would just get messy, i hated being discreet about it all but it was only to avoid conflict.

I left and headed to the fountain outside the college and sat on the edge watching the water fall into the pool.

"Hey, Y/n...?" A voice said from behind me, I looked back and saw the 6,3 male, he had a soft smile. I couldn't help but smile back at him. "Hi..." I reply as he sits down next to me.

"I'm sorry how Marina spoke to you, I told her off."
"Its okay... But I do have one question" I look at him and we held eye contact. "Okay... What is it?"
"Are you and Marina actually dating?" I asked. "No..We're not shes just...a piece of work. Why? Jealous?" He smirks while chuckling, I hit his arm. "What! no" I laugh awkwardly. "I mean..." I look back at the ground, breaking the eye contact. "What...?" He raised a brow at me. I swallowed nervously, Marcos words replaying in my head. "I like you." I sigh. "A lot... I've been denying it for a while because i know how complicated it would become but i know i will regret it if i don't..." My eyes kept wandering down to the ground, my heart was racing at a million miles per hour. The silence was thick, it felt like the silence lasted for forever. I looked back up at him, "I'm sorry- I'll just go-" I quickly got up, wanting to escape the embarrassment. "Wait-" The boy said as I suddenly felt a hand grab my wrist and i was pulled against his chest, now looking up into his eyes. My face heated up, my heart still pounding. What was happening right now?

"I uh-"
"I like you a lot too..." He finally admitted.

Did he just say what i think he just said?

My lips met his as he leaned down and i relaxed closing my eyes, our lips moved as one. I slowly wrapped my arms around his neck and his arms moved down to my waist, pulling me closer to him, his body heat warming mine. The moment was perfect, I took in every second of it, butterflies erupted in my stomach. This felt as if this was a long time coming, I connected with me, never this well with anyone before.

The kiss finally came to end and we were now face to face. He chuckled, "Who knew you had a thing for 'bad boys'?" I smile as I laugh. "Dont flatter yourself too much." We both went silent, lost in eachothers presence. It wasn't uncomfortable it was comforting if anything.

"So..." He says in a lower voice.
"So, what now?" I ask, now pursing my lips.
"Let me take you on a date." He smiles.
"Really?" I smile back.
"Yeah, of course. Dummy" He chuckles and i roll my eyes playfully back. "How about this friday? I'll take you out to a restaurant? 7pm?"
"Okay...Sounds good"

And just like that, something started that was going to cause a lot of issues but in that moment, I didn't care. He was the only one that mattered in that moment.