Young royals 2

Chapter 1

It was cold when I stepped out of church. With my head down I walked towards the black limousine. Even without looking up I knew that August turned his head towards me but I didn't stop walking like I used to do it. Instead I looked up to Simon who stood next to a few strangers. I knew I shouldn't have but I stopped walking and waited for him to turn around.
"Hi", I said.
"That was beautiful".
Simon smiled a bit and responded with "thanks". I paused for a few seconds then I hugged him. I felt all the surprised looks on us as we clutched each other. That was it. The last moment of happiness, the last moment with Simon. The time seemed to stop, everything around us disappeared.
"I'm sorry", I murmured.
Should I say it? Infront of all these people? I didn't care about them anymore. Nothing mattered, nothing but him. My heart was pounding when I decided to tell Simon. I needed him to know it. I needed him to hear these three words before I left.
"I love you".
For a few moments we just looked deep into each other's eyes.
"I hope you have a nice Christmas". He tried to cover it up but I could hear the pain in his voice. Mine was barely a whisper when I answered.
"Thank you, Simon".
I didn't want to leave him. Not now that I needed him more than anything else in this world. But I had to pull myself together. I had to get in the car and start a new life. Away from Hillerska. Away from Simon.

I went to the car and left Simon behind. It was warm inside but it felt freezing cold. With Simon it just seemed warmer, more fulfilled. Now I felt like someone had ripped off my second half. I looked outside the window as the car started to drive. Why? Why does this have to be my life? Why couldn't I just be a normal teenager with a normal life? A teenager who can be in love with someone without the whole world knowing. I looked back and catched one last look at Simon before he and everything else disappeared on the horizon. A single tear rolled down my cheek. That was when I realized it. I couldn't live without Simon. I couldn't live the life I was meant to live as the crown prince. But I had to. There was no other choice. And that was the saddest part of my life. That I was forced to live the life I was meant to live. That I couldn't decide which life I actually wanted to live.
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Hey guys! So this was my first chapter, I hope you liked it. Please give me feedback regarding my grammar. I'm actually from germany but I want to do an exchange year in England next year and I wanna know if my english is good enough😂