It was dark when I woke up. I looked at my phone and saw that it already was 2am and I had to get up at 7am. I still couldn't believe that I won't go to Hillerska in a few hours but to an expensive private school for people like me. People with blue blood, people whose lifes had been planned in advance. Just like mine. I opened my phone again and scrolled through instagram. I knew I should let go of it but I searched Simon's username and started to scroll through his posts. I missed him.
Oh my god! How will you ever start a new life when you can't let go of the past?! You need to forget him! You have to take your place as the crown prince!, a voice in my head told me. I didn't want to listen. All I wanted was to see him again. But I can't. And I never will. I don't know why but everything hits harder at night than during the day, when you're surrounded by people. Forced to put a smile on your face and pretend that everything is okay. I started crying. Everything hurt. Every single inch of me was full of pain. Even if I would've tried, I couldn't stop sobbing. Millions of tears ran down my cheeks. That's too much! All of this is too much for me!, I thought. All the memories suddenly came back. Everything that I had suppressed in the last few hours now pattered on me again. Hillerska, my friends, the video...and Simon. I wanted, I needed him to be with me. He would know what to do. He would know how to help me get out of this shitty life. I made a decision. I had to do it. I opened my phone and texted him.When I read this one last message, I felt a cozy warmth encircle me. I knew that if my family found out about me still staying in contact with Simon they would probably kill me. I knew what I did was wrong and I should stop it immediately but my heart resisted. And so I continued.
I put the phone away. Maybe I should go to sleep too. It was 02:40am which means I only had 4 hours and 20 minutes left to sleep.
Maybe he's right, I thought, maybe it'll be better soon. And maybe–just maybe–we'll be able to be together then. This was the last thought I had before I finally fell asleep.
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Hey guys! This chapter is a bit shorter but it's literally 3am and just like Wilhelm I need to wake up in a few hours so I can't write more. I'll try to do regular updates but I can't promise anything because I'm on vacation right now and therefore I have less time to write. Anyway. I hope you liked it so far!
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