The Social Butterfly

it all started the day i.......

I was laying on my bed waching my fav show doctor who like I did ever day and thin it happens a tall blonde walked on the screen that's when the thing happend again the filling the racing that thing I pushed it off oh it's nuthen I said but I couldn't help but think that this keeps happening I should do some thing about it. Any way back to the show I had to finish it before my cousin Belle got there I knew she would won't to play and I wouldn't be able to watch it the show whent of right when she walked in to my room.
"Heyyyyyy" I said (the things I say will be in bold)
"Heyy Anissa do you remember where we where when we last played "a he said. See we play these games there not realy games like monopoly or chess or hide and seek see it all started when we where little we would play animals like lions and Fox abd stuff like that but as we got older we started to cosplay are fab movies and show.Are games where cosplaing with out the out costumes this is pointless but the game that we played the most was are Avenger game we played it no joke from the time the first one came out all the way to a year before the second one came out .we made up are own characters and love interest like Mine was Hawkeye and(sorry belle) hers was Tony. It was fun but we would get board of that version and start from the ground up like that lasts version of the game was a wired cross over I was a female doctor (from doctor who)and my love interest was Loki I ternd him good and forced him to help us avengers and belle was Elsa yes from frozen her love interest yes you gessed it Tony I got side trake big time wow sorry I'm ADD this happens if you haven't notice so I'm going to rewind to five years ago any thing before that not important anything after you won't understand if you don't have the last five years.

Ok so hey ........where should I start owww I got it.
So let's start with why this is important so I was a very shy kid and when I mean shy I mean shy it grately had something to do with (I know tmi but this a book about my life ) early puberty see I started going threw puberty at the age of six well at lest that's when I started getting physical signs like hair brest growth BO discharge and all that good stuff and that when on for a while and gess what boom January 28,2010. (I was 9 year old a few week's before my bday feb 12 ) yes I know the exact date it was most awful day of my life. The school day started of bad was late for school felled my test and so much more fast fowerd throw that I got of the bus at my mom's work like I did every day whent to the bath room first thing like I always did and hello big huge red bloody mess nine years old and had started to bleed I wad prepared I knew what to do I was told how when I started getting sighs. So did what I did in all cases like this took it like a boss I put on my trusty pad and strapped my self in mentally for the hell my life would be for the rest of my life I told my self it was going to be ok soldier (the only reson I said soldier is becuse I said I was trained I find it funny I know I'm wired shut up) .I walked out of the bathroom like a boss and I said mom I started my first period as all mom would say or I think all mom would.
Good job hunny I got something to tell you to I lost my job this is my last week
And considering I was hormonal I broke down in tears .thin next day had to go to school. (not to meanchon in have a condition called PCOSit's a fatality thing if you don't know what it is look it up ) I have super bad cramps and bleed very hevy all this last fir a good two weeks yes a two week period that hurt the hole time yes I even had it on my bday

So I believe that's why I was so shy .

So I have gay people in my family right we all do but I have more gay people on my dad's side then the normal family.
So I was living at with my parents and I had been waching this show about body paint where the people get their body painted to blend in with there seroundings I shere you know what I'm talking about so I was watching this show and remember the woman from doctor who the tall blond yeah her she was the only reson I watched the show that and I love art but ever time she would talk or go on the screen I would get butter flys I thought nuthing of it becuse I didn't fill that way for no one else in the world so who cares well apparently I did this was going o. For month or two so I did what ever kid does and reaereted it when I typed in what does it mean when you get butterflys when you see a girl but your a girl and gess what came up gay lesbian bisexual and all that and I started to cry at the time I was only 11 and my parents had all was told me it wad wrong so I pushed it to the back of my brain it never came back up thill maby year later when I was dared to kiss. This guy and this girl and I had butterfly for both .a few days later my half sister (my dad's first kid) comes out as gay over Facebook at this time I all ready knew I was in to girls and boys lets just say my mom was like I don't care and ny dad whent crazy he cried all the time and broke a shovel over his knee and yeah thin he became cool with it to but the way he acted scared me in the closet. ,........

Fast fowerd five years to about January 17 2015 how ironic. ...... I had admitted to my self I'm bi thers nun you can do bit stay in the closet but I was rally depressed becuse of it I couldn't be me I was all ways hiding it I constantly had a mask over my face but I was sick of I so one day I got the nerver to text m cousin Belle. (form the beginning of this story the part I still never finished ADD) I had been dating me bff veronica seance Dec my first girlfriend besides the point but I texted belle and it whent a little like this
Hey can I tell you something
Yeah what's up
Do you promise you will still love me
Yeah
And still care abd still spend the night with each other and you will still love me
Yes why wouldn't i
I don't know so you promise.
And you won't be mad
Are you gay?
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Your gay arnt you I knew it haha I'm right
Well thecnoly I'm bisexual meaning I like boys and girls but yes I am
Yeah I know what it is
So it's not going to be different
........why would it
Becuse I'm bi
Its not like you have a crush on me that where family and I all ways knew it
Oh ok thanks
Who all knows
Just you and my girlfriend
Oh ok cool
Yep
So what are you doing this weekend I was thinking seance it's a three day week end I could spend the night
Shere sound fun
That was the exact text to I got,it,out of my phone history lol
So yeah I was out of the closet for two peopel I would tell all my friends thin tell other family

So I hope you like this I could care less if you don't,I'm kinda useing it as my jernol hint why their so many grammar errors that and autocorret on my phone and if your wondering why it jumpes around that's becuse that's how my brain works ADD so yeah that and it's not pland story like some of my other good work that I just realized are not uploaded on here opps so yeah it comes start from my brain I right it as it goes and it is a story of my life do,it s not going to,be thought out so yeah stay toon for more back story thin to the new more rsont stuff