Gone With The Wind

Lessons on Life

The saddest end to a relationship is one where you have to break up with somebody when you're still in love with them. It sounds bizarre but it happens, because the truth is, as powerful and as thrilling and as wonderful as it may be, love isn't always enough and to be in love doesn't always mean you're happy.

The sad truth is that some people don't truly love that special someone they're with. And sometimes they never really loved them in the first place.

Or maybe they fall out of love during the time they're dating. It happens. People date, and people fall out of love.

It hurts, but you have to learn how to accept it. No one stays forever.

There are also times when people get manipulated. You fall for them and they toss you away like trash. I've always thought love was stupid. Finding someone and spending the rest of your life with them sounded so stupid to me.

Who would want just that one person, forever?

I had never felt true love before. I thought I did, but in reality it was just puppy love. The kind that never really matters. It just disappears, and you realize it was never pure love. That was until I met him.

He was so kind and understanding. He never forced me to do anything I didn't want to do. He really did love me. I thought it would be impossible to find someone to love me.

I always found that one person that made me feel special but they never stay. It made me feel like no one would ever truly love me.

A friend of mine told me once, "If life can remove someone you never thought of losing, it can replace them with someone you never dreamt of having."

I always thought it was such a stupid thing to say.

But that's just my opinion. Because everyone seemed stupid and coldhearted to me.

Everyone would take advantage of me because I was so nice. I could never say no and people used me because of that. I never had friends and I always kept to myself.

I think I'm afraid to be happy because whenever I get too happy, something bad always happens.

But once I couldn't handle my loneliness anymore I tried to kill myself. I lost my mother and sister 4 months ago, they got in a car accident. I'm currently living with my aunt.

When I say I tried killing myself, I don't mean cutting myself no. I mean using a gun. My uncle was a policeman and I got ahold of his gun.

I never actually shot myself, I only ever wanted to. I was too scared.

So that brings the story here.

Hi. My name, It's Hinata Shoyo . I'm a Sophomore at Karasuno High School.

I'm on the volleyball team, which is pretty cool because now I have friends. My life has gotten a lot better. But still, I wish my mom and sister were still here.

I'm still broken over it but, I'm a little better.

"Hinata you ready to go?" Kageyama said next to me. We were both in math class and I didn't even realize school had ended.

These days I seem to space out a lot. I get too caught up in my thoughts and space out.

"Yeah gimme a sec," I say, flashing him a smile.

"Okay." He responds, smiling back.

I pack my school stuff back into my bag, and we leave.

Kageyama and I have been friends since the beginning of our Sophomore year, and we quickly became best friends. And ever since that, we've walked home from school together.