Somebody That I Used To Know

Part 2

November 22nd

Dear Journal

Sorry I haven't written in a few days it just I am really worried about my brother he had a fight with his "friends" yesterday. ( Not a word fight but a physical fight) I had to leave school and go down to his school and talk to the principal. For some reason the principal didn't even know that our parents died. He said he was very sorry and that because of this he would let us off the hook, he also explained that it was his way of moving on, but its been about a month and he is just getting worst so I had to do something.

Instead of going back to school I went home. When I got there I ran up to my brothers room to search through all his stuff only to find his smokes and other drugs he was hidding. After that I called a psychiatrist and made an appointment for the 28th. When my brother got home he asked me why I was home so early and this is what I said (I quote) I didn't go back to school to day, instead I came right home after talking to your principal. You have an appointment for the 28th wit a psychiatrist. He was furious, he ran to his room then a few minutes later came down and asked why all his stuff is everywhere. I replied gone, then I left. I hope he can forgive me. That night before bed I prayed to GOD that Ryan would get better, after that I felt better.

Goodnight Journal

Sincerely Caroline

November 28th

Dear Journal

Day Of Appointement

Today is the day I take Ryan to see the psychiatrist. He refused to go but I asked him what he wanted most and at first he said mom and dad back- which was very sad- but I told him that I was sorry and that I couldn't bring them back, he was devestated. The one thing I did tell him was this ( I quote) Mom and Dad would've wanted you to get batter because what you are doing is not going to do anything but maybe get you arrested, so we need to make sure you get better.

I wasn't that impressed and I don't think Ryan was either when we walked into the psychiatrists office. Everything was gray, broken and messy. I saw mold growing on every piece of furniture you could see. When she came out was worst of all because her presentation was horrible. She was in ripped clothes as if she just finished working on a construction site. If I could only go in there with him to make sure he doesn't lie. This women looks like she wouldn't see through lie if it hit her on the butt! When he went into the room I left. I went for a smoothie at McDonalds. When I returned Ryan was waiting for me outside, when I asked him how it went he said he didn't want to talk about.

When we got home some of Ryan's friends decided to come and make sure he was ok. He said he was fine and then he left. I texted him a cerfu of 9:30pm he responde wih ok but I didn't believed he cared, but I had to trust him so when he came home at 10:30- 1 hour past his cerfu- I got really mad and grounded him. Again he was furious! But I didn't care because who knows what he could've been doing when he was out. I can finally sleep now.

Goodnight Journal

Sincerely Caroline.