Somebody That I Used To Know

Part 3

December 1st

Dear Journal

I cried when I got up this morning and found that Ryan was gone! His window was opened and his jacket was gone. I called the cops because when I was snooping around I found ropes and a knife I panicked and left the house, to at least try to find him.

I went to all his friends house, the police station to make sure he wasn't in jail. I looked everywhere but couldn't find him I was starting to panic. Wait I already started panicking about an hour ago when the police said that they couldn't find him. If only I knew where he was I would be so thankful.

I was on Dried Avenue when I opened a door and in there I saw Ryan with a pack of smokes, smoking away. I ran up to him grabbed the smokes and chucked them to the ground, I grabbed Ryan's arm and pulled him into the car. He was not happy!

On the drive home this was our conversation (I quote):

Ryan: Why? Why don't you let me do anything I want!

Me: Because some of the things that you want to do are wrong and can get you put in jail!

Ryan: But still how come you don't trust me to make the right decisions?

Me: Because Ry I've given you more than enough chances and you blew them all, especially this morning.

Ryan: You know what? Fine don't believe me I will prove to you

And that was exactly what I wanted!

Me: Then no smoking, cutting yourself or anything that can possibly get you into trouble. Do you hear me?

Ryan: Yes

By the time we got home it was really late so now I have to go to bed

Goodnight Journal

Sincerely Caroline

December 2nd

Dear Journal

This morning I woke up and decided to leave Ryan a home and go visit mom and dads grave. When I got there I talked to them about what Ryan has done and what I did about it, right now I know they'd be happy with me is what I could of asked of them. Before I came I wrote a letter to place beside my parents grave and this is how it went:

Dear My Lovely Parents,

To this pleasure I owe everything, I can't believe its been a month already. Your funeral was fantastic - sad - but fantastic. There were so many good things said. Everybody came, both sides of the family, friends and co-workers.

You were right it is really hard being a parent/ guardian. I would have never thought that Ryan would be doing the things that he is curently doing right now, I am so sorry to say that Ryan is cutting himself, smoking and doind drugs. I really would like some of your advice right now. I've tried talking to god but it - I am sorry to say it didn't work.

I miss you guys alot! I was really hoping that you would've been here to see my 17th birthday, Ryan really surprised me. I will come and visit soon.

Love Caroline

I really do miss them but life goes on. When I got home it was late and Ryan was sound asleep in his bed like a good kid. Can people really change? I guess we will find out.

Goodnight Journal

Sincerely Caroline