I'M SORRY! •Jikook • Sequel to 'Perfect two?' *DISCONTINUED*

Chapter 16

▪︎ Jimin's Pov ▪︎

It was the first day of the awards show. And I am going to see it in person, because I don't preform until tomorrow. It's going to be difficult to preform because I just got out of the hospital but I'm going to make it work.

I've been out of the hospital for 4 days now, and each and every day I have had dance practice and I practice after practice hour as well. I'm so sore, but today I don't have to practice I'm I'm going to be fine until tomorrow.

As I was on my way to the stadium that the award show is at I was thinking of the letters Jungkook had sent me. I can't believe he actually wrote me letters. I really wanted to read the two again. So when I got stopped by a red light I started reading the first one because I had them in the car still from me reading them after dance practice.

" I'm nothing special.
We don't hold many
conversations anymore
But every part of me wishes
That we did.
I never wanted us to end.
I never wanted to lose
Someone as great as you, in
The end.
I'm not perfect.
No one is.
Somehow...
You're perfect to me.
Your eyes...
The way they'd sparkle.
Your smile...
The way it would grow at the
Smallest things.
Your tears...
The ones I caused at lot.
I always made you the bad one
I'm somehow good at it...
I thought I had a good heart but...
I lost you.
I don't find that good-hearted in anyway.
You always tried to help me,
But I pushed you away.
You kept trying.
Then one day you gave up.
I was Scared.
I thought I had ruined everything...
I thought you were going to leave and that I wasn't going to see you ever again.
I thought you were done with me.
Then you messaged me.
Then we blossomed.
You always kept me stable and
For some odd reason I never seemed to tell you thank you.
If I ever did
You'd tell me not too.
You deserve to hear it, so why not let me say it?
One day I got really distant...
Really...distant.
We stopped talking as often.
Our long walks turned into
Small smiles.
Our eyes never met anymore.
I messed up.
I hurt you...
And I never meant to...
It's stupid to say but I
Never thought it'd hurt you as
Bad as for you to...
Go...
You started to ignore my
Messages... or you'd be short
With me.
I started to cry myself to sleep...
Then you left...
And... I never saw you.
I wondered where you had gone.
Then, I saw you...
Walking along with
Someone...
New...
I-i wasn't good enough anymore.
But it's okay...
I know that I'm the reason you left.
You're happy now.
And I'm okay with that.
I'd rather see your smile grow instead of shrink because of me.
I just wish you to stay happy.
I'll always be here...
Because I still care you know...
I'll never forget you.
Because unlike me...
You were everything special. "

Once I was done reading the letter I was crying and I heard cars honking at me, so I looked up an noticed the light was now green. Once I stopped at another red light I read the second letter.