Bedtime stories

Part 13- just a fan

I wake up the next morning with Grants arms wrapped around me last night seems so long ago or like the whole thing was a dream. But I knew it wasn't because he was still here with me sleeping like an angel. I check the time on my phone it was 8:00!!! I was going to need a drive from my mom but I could make it to school on time if I get ready quickly.

"Grant I have to get up or I will be late" I role over and wispier in his ear trying not to wake him to abruptly from his sleep.

"Can't you stay home today? It's my last day I wanna spend time with you" he holds me closer to his chest. I get up to go look for my mom

"I will ask but I doubt my mom will say yes" I walked into my moms room but she wasn't there. I yelled for her but she didn't answer. Since I couldn't find her I walked into Megan's room to find out if she had seen her

"Do you know where mom is I wanna stay home from school today?" She was still in bed but her school started later than mine because she was still in middle school.

"She's working today but it's a snow day just go back to bed." She groaned and closed her eyes again.

I walked back into my room and climbed into my warm bed Grants arms quickly wrapped around me again and my heart started beating fast. His arms felt more like home than any place ever had and I loved it.

"It's a snow day! When is your flight?"

"It's at 3 so we can spend most of the day together but lets just sleep for now." I just nuzzled my head into his chest and fell back asleep.

I woke up 2 hours later to Grants phone buzzing. I picked it up to see who was texting him.

Sierra: Fine I'll see you on Thursday. But you will have to decide by then.

I was going to open Grants phone to see what Sierra was talking about but I didn't want to snoop so I quickly put Grants phone down. As I was putting. It down Grant rolled over and kissed me on the cheek.

"Good morning beautiful. What do you want to do today?"

"Well there is a blizzard outside so we can't do much."

"Okay we can just stay in and watch Netflix." I got up to go get dressed but Grant pulled me back down.

"Just stay in your pjs we aren't doing anything special." After about 10 minutes of just laying in bed together talking about random stuff I got up to get my laptop from my desk.

"New episodes of 'The 100' we have to watch that." Grant practically shouts in his cute voice.

"Okay I love The 100."

We watch 2 episodes by the time they are over I'm practically starving.

"Do you wanna get some breakfast? Or I guess lunch now" I get up from my bed and Grant follows me into my kitchen

"Can we have pancakes?" He makes a begging motion with his hands and half smirks. He is so adorable it's insane!

"Of course we can" I grab a box of pancake mix out of my cupboard and start mixing ingredients together. Out of the corner of my eye I see Grant pointing his phone at me trying to take stealthy photos I cover my face quickly when I notice.

"Grant don't take pictures of me right now I look so bad!!" He puts his phone in his pocket and wraps his arms around me.

"Listen to me you are beautiful. You are beautiful no matter what. You look like a princess." He kisses my cheek and warmth floods threw me. I remember just 2 days ago when we kissed at the meet&great. As I thought of this I remembered that was the only time we kissed. Although we had given kisses on the cheeks many times we hadn't kissed on the lips again. I am snapped back to reality by the sound of the fire alarm going off. I hadn't even realized I had put a pancake on the pan.

"What a great cook we have" he laughs out his laugh is still adorable. I join in laughing harder than I have in so long. I grab a towel and wave at the fire alarm till it turns off. I finish making the pancakes with out burning anymore.

As we sit down to eat our pancakes I open Instagram on my phone. The first things that pops up is a photo of me cooking pancakes that Grant posted the caption read 'She thinks she looks ugly because she doesn't have her makeup on but to me she is more beautiful than ever.' My heart races and I look at Grant with a smile he gives me a smile back.

"Do you like the photos babe because I think you look beautiful." I hit him playfully on the arm.

"So what are we? Grant, what are we going to be after you leave for tour?" I had been dreading the question but I knew I had to ask sooner or later. His face softens after he takes a bite of his pancake

"I don't know I really like you but we live so far away... I just wish I didn't have to leave." I started wondering about what Sierra was talking about when she texted him. What did he have to decide? Why is she seeing him Thursday? I knew I would regret it but I had to ask.

"So this morning before you woke up you phone buzzed and I looked at it, it was Sierra texting you. She sad that she would see you Thursday and you will have to decide by then. What was that about?" His face is emotionless. I hate when he looks like that I can't read what he is thinking. He just looks so stone cold.

"Why did you read my messages?"

"I didn't read you messages! I just saw that one on the lock screen. Will you please answer my question." I say as strong as I can but I can feel a tear come to my eye. I don't even know why I'm about to cry now.

"Sierra was mad about me hanging out with you and said I had to decide if I wanted you or her in my life but I told her I just couldn't answer that right now. Because you both mean lots to me. And I will be seeing her Thursday because Jacob is coming to that show of my tour." I almost let a tear fall from my eye but I kept it in. He had to decide by Thursday who he was going to pick. He obviously wasn't going to pick me I was some ugly little fangirl and Sierra... Well she meant something to him she was actually somebody.

"So who are you going to pick?" I really didn't want to hear the answer but I knew I had to ask.

" well I mean I've know Sierra for so long and she's one of my best friends and I did like her at one point. And I really like you but you're just a... A.. Fan" he stumbles out the last word like he doesn't really want to say that. I feel my heart break into a million pieces even when he didn't know who I was he had never called anyone 'just a fan' his words just broke me.

"Just go I don't want to ruin you're thing you have with Sierra." I practically yell but my voice breaks and I start to cry. He steps towards me and I begin to cry harder but I still push him away and just point to the door.

"I don't want to go. I don't want to be without you. I didn't mean what I said you are more than a fan" he practically begs me. But I know it will be better for him if he goes he doesn't have to deal with me. I'm a mess. He shouldn't have to deal with just a fan.

"Please just go Grant." Why was I telling him to go? No I need to tell him to go. I guess it's like the saying goes 'if you love something let it go if it loves you it will find its way back to you' but the thing is Grant doesn't love me. He grabs his things and walks out the door. As soon as he leaves I collapse on the floor in tears his words echo threw my mind "you're just a fan"