Everyday I get stronger at the same weaker.
The older I get, the more I start to understand the world. The sad part is, once I see the world, I wish I never did.
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Our recognition is near and we're a having a program about mental awareness including anxiety and depression.
All of us have to attend the program. Pumunta kami ng auditorium, umupo ako sa bandang gitna. The program started immediately, they introduced themselves.
After an hour of discussing, they asked a question.
”Is anyone of you experienced some mental issues?” a lady asked.
Some of us raised our hands and so am I. The lady picked me.
“Would you mind share your experienced Ms?” she asked me looking directly to my eye as if she was reading my mind.
“Allie po.” I introced myself.
I started sharing.
“I have anxiety. Yung tipong hindi ka lang mapansin or ma-ignore ka, feeling mo may nagawa kang kasalanan sa kanila. Yung hindi ka nakasama sa gala ninyong magtrotropa iniisio mo na ikaw yung pinagu-usapan nila. Confidence will never win against anxiety, kahit gaano ka pa ka-confident pag may anxiety ka everything will turn upside down. Yung feeling na may wala kang kaibigan, na baka peke lahat ng nakapalibot sayo. Takot ka mag-isa. You're too afraid if someone will leave you at sisisihin mo yung sarili mo dahil napaka walang kwenta mo. You lost control to yourself, you don't even who you are. Completely lost.” naluha na ko sa matapos ko magsalita. I never expect na masasabe ko yon sa lahat ng tao.
