I'm not lonely, I just felt that I'm alone at all.
When everything sucks, I always run to them.
But when I need help the people I needed the most will just disappear like a bubble or they have something to do pero wala naman.
When everything sucks, I cried on my bed. I want to thank my pillow for catching my tears when I'm crying.
Naramdaman ko na lang na nakakatulog na ko habang natulog pa rin ang luha ko at ang bilis ng tibok ng puso ko. God didn't leave me when I'm at my worst, he let me rest for a while.
I remembered nagkaroon ako ng boyfriend last year my parents didn't know it. He never leaves me when I'm crying every night, I told him all my problems also he made happy but it still ends. He lied, he didn't care about my problems, he didn't even listen when I'm sharing it with him, he didn't ask me if I'm okay. That was the day that I died.
I lost control, every night I cry and when I wake up I pretend that it didn't happen.
This is a fact. Fighting my own monster is hard.
