Mixed Emotions

Chapter 4

Paige's POV

Now in most movies theres the whole cliche 'going into the light' thing when you die. But i can sure goddamn tell you its real. I never actually processed the idea of dying until this very moment, im runng as fast as i can trying to get away. No matter how fast i run the bright, empty light seems to catch up twice as fast.
Im starting to run out of breath and slow down but I try not to allow myself to stop.
Am i dying? Is this what its like?

I cant die. I need to see Matt, he has to know i love him. I try to pick up my speed but i know sooner or later i have to stop. Then all of a sudden i did, and so did the light.

I hear a voice, "Paige, its Matt. Come on, dont you want to see me?" Matt?

"MATT? WHERE ARE YOU" i screamed louder than ever. As it echoed down the empty hospital corridor, a black shadow appeared in the light.

"Babe, im right here" his voice sounded so soft and inviting. I dont move, but stare at this figure. Its physically impossible for him to be here so it cant be him.

While being distracted by my thoughts, I hadn't realized my body was moving toward it on its own.
I used every muscle to try to get myself to stop walking but i had no control.

"No! Please! Stop! I dont want to die" I started to panic as the light got brighter and brighter. I felt my body get a rush and im engulfed completely by this light and cant see a thing.
I hear an echoed voice soon after i couldnt see, "Dont worry, youre going to be just fine babe. Trust me"

Its black. I cant hear anything. But i can feel. Its just like how i was when i blacked out in the basement right after Matt rescued me. I feel a grip on my left hand, the softness of maybe pillows and blankets beneath me, and i feel some sort of wires across my body.

It takes me a while to realise it, but somehow im back 'inside my body' if thats how you would put it. Maybe that bright light wasnt death after all.

I slowly began gaining some hearing back. I hear a faint beeping, the sound of keys jangling, and the breath of someone next to me. Oh how i hope its Matt. My answer is answered when the person mummbles, "God Paige I miss you so much" It is him.

My body fills with warmth at the thought of him staying with me. I just want to wake up so i can be with him and hug him and kiss him. I keep picturing myself waking up and seeing a bright smile across his adorable face.

I feel myself waking up, but i dont know when its going to happen. Probably soon, maybe and hour, maybe two, or maybe just 20 minutes. I feel awake already but i know im not but i want Matt to know im here and im going to soon.

Maybe i can turn my head, move an arm, kick my leg or something. Anything just so he knows im okay. I use just about all my energy to move head as if i was looking at him but i obviously fail. I need to try something easier. He is stil holding onto my hand so if im able to just squeeze his, he'll know im going to wake up. I try squeezing both of my hands as if i was putting them into fists. After a couple more times my hand slightly squeezes his and felt his breath stop.

"Paige, baby, are you there? Taylor she just moved get in here!" he says.

"What do you mean she moved? What are you talking about?"

" Imean she squeezed my hand! I think she's waking up Taylor"

Someone walks over to the bed and sits down. "Paige, its Matt. Okay i felt you squeeze my hand baby. Now listen carefully if you can hear me do it again" So thats exactly what i did. "Thank god. See Taylor she can hear us. Okay okay Paige if youre trying to wake up i need you to do that just onemore time." I tried to use the rest of my strength to squeeze his hand but i cant. "Come on Paige i know youre trying, but please try a little harder.

He needed me to tell him that I was trying, and i was trying as hard as i could to do that. I just didnt have enough strength.

OKAY I WANTED TO RIGHT MORE THAN THIS BUT I FIGURED YOU GUYS SHOULD GET AT LEAST SOMETHING TO READ THIS STORY IS KINDA TRASHY RN BUT ITS GOING TO GET BETTER I PROMISE - I