Unspoken Love

Prologue

Its a human nature to keep secrets all by ourselves, its not because were selfish or what so ever, its just that not everyone of us has enough guts to speak our feelings outloud

We dont speak our feelings the way we really want it to be, maybe because we fear that people may not understand us, we fear judgements and criticisms, well, all of us has our own fears, mine is rejection.

I hate seeing the man i love being prefectly happy with the girl she loves. Damn i feel so rejected and it really kills me to the bones knowing that im not the reason behind his smile, his priceless smile.

After all, i know my limits, i know that i can only watch him afar and can only love him secretly,and only in my dreams i can have him all by myself but you know reality hurts, damn hurts.

Im not that obsessed but you know what? I promised my self to be there whenever he needed me or not hayyys im so fucking crazy, This man tsss what did you do to me, what did you do to make me loveyou like thisss ugghh

I know everything about this man, yesss because ilove him, i know every single details of him, i know the meaning of his eyes, his precious smiles, his gestures, and just everything about him, and you know what? I think i know him more than his girl
knows him hahaha owkay immmm idunno. Its not like im stalking him or whatever you think im doing, its just that i know him very well. Love instincts? Idont know

But yeah, I always keep on reminding my self that eventhough he's my everything, for him, im just a nothing, im just a shitty fool girl who's been for god's sake's inlove with him eversince the first time my eyes laid on him. Cheezy much? Nah its true

I dont know why but i always keep on asking my self why despite of all the pain he causes me , i still keep on loving him? Why i keep on holding unto him? why can't i just let go of him but yeah... i know im such a hopless massochist but is it bad to love him? to follow my heart? to do things that makes me damn happy?

Ugghhh my life is such a pityful tragedy, life, can u not?

Damn My self, and yeah im the only person who knows what i really feels for 'him' bacause i know that myself is the only person whom i can trust and wont leave and betray me. And yes its fine with me even if it means leaving my feelings for him unspoken.... My unspoken feelings...

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Unspoken Love