Can't Raise A Man (Lauren London) {Nae'}

Chapter 10

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"Mommy? Where's daddy?" CJ asked as he woke up. Cam looked at me in disbelief. "You got this lil nigga calling him daddy?!" I looked at him. "Did you just call my damn son a nigga?" He shook his head, then that's when it happened...he smacked me, he fucking smacked me, Brandon walked in. "Daddy!" CJ yelled as he ran to Brandon. "Daddy! Mommy's been hit again!" Brandon shook his head at me. "& this is what you want?" I got up from the ground. "You know I don't want this shit! But you don't know what I go through, you don't know what I've been through on a daily basis!" I screamed, maybe its time to let it all out.

"YOU DON'T KNOW THE PAIN! THE HURT I HAVE BEEN THROUGH! IMAGINE EVERY DAY OF YOUR LIFE FIGHTING! FIGHTING FOR YOUR SON & FIGHTING FOR YOU! IT HURTS TO KNOW THE MAN YOU LOSS EVERYTHING TO DOESN'T GIVE A SINGLE FUCK EVERYTIME YOU HURT! WHO DOESN'T CARE THAT HE'S THE ONE CAUSING YOUR PAIN! WATCHING YOUR SON WATCH YOU HURT EVERY DAY!" I yelled. "Now ask me again, ask me is this what I want..." I was now crying & trying to catch my breath. I was fed up & all that, all that I just let out...it felt good!

"Cyn...come here." Brandon sighed trying to hold me. "No...because you left me, you left me knowing how I felt about this whole situation. Knowing that someone I gave my all to is willing to at least try to be here. You could've stayed here & I would've picked you, but no! You left Cynthia...you left Cynthia!" I cried, he pulled me into a hug & craddled me in his arms. "I'm sorry...I'm sorry I left you Cyn. I'll never leave you again, I promise!" I felt a tear fall on my forehead & that's when I knew...I knew he was never gonna break this promise, or any promise for that matter.