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𝑦𝑒𝑜𝑛𝑗𝑢𝑛
" are you okay with all of this ?" i whispered to her. " yeah im fine" she answered kinda nervous. " you know we don't have to anything but hug and stuff nothing to serious" " yeah i know but it just doesn't feel right to be honest" "why not?" "bc we are friends" "it's okay dani" "if you say so" she says.
𝑑𝑎𝑛𝑖
"okay everyone we need you all to go in your dressing rooms." my agent said. "okay" yeonjun and i said.
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i look in the mirror outside of my dressing room, trying to see if i like the outfit, they put me in. it was a dress that was on the shorter side, i liked it but i didn't think i look good on me. "that makes you look fat. just go home and eat some ice cream or something fatty. you don't belong here. you aren't good enough for this." is all my brain kept telling me and i was starting to leave when i heard a "you look beautiful" from behind me. i turn around to yeonjun looking at me in ahh. "i do?" i questioned. "yes you do, why are you so surprised?" he questioned. "bc i don't think i look that way, it's too short and i'm too ugly" i answered. "you are not, you look gorgeous. why do you put yourself down?" "idk it just was a thing that my dad did so i just kept doing it." "well i'm here for you and if you ever doubt yourself again, i'll kiss you on yo forehead, stop with me" (ifykyk) "oh" i just stand there blinking. "well let's get to our shoot" he said pulling me to the set.
"well finally your back, so you all are on a date in this shoot," my agent tell us. "okay dani, i need you to have a seat on the blanket" "okay" i say sitting down. "yeonjun, i need you to lay across the blanket and have your head on her thighs" "done" he said getting into the pose that they told him to. after the photographer took some pictures, my agent said. "okay now i need you both to look into each other's eyes and really sell it" we look into each others eyes but for some reason, i slowly got closer and closer to him. and giving him a kiss but out of embarrassment, i got up really fast and said. " i'll be right back" "take 5 everyone" my agent said.
"what the hell was i thinking, why would you kiss him you idiot. you have ruined your chances at a friendship, again. uhh why am i so stupid."
but yet again someone interrupted my thoughts.
*knock knock*
"yeah" i responded. "uhm they need us back and it was fine" yeonjun said try to reassure me. "oh okay, thanks" "let's go, we will talk more about this afterwards" "okay" i say following behind him.
⚠︎︎ᴛᴡ: ᴍᴇɴᴛɪᴏɴ ᴏғ sᴇʟғ ʜᴀʀᴍ ᴀɴᴅ ᴘᴛsᴅ⚠︎︎
we finished with our shoot and i went back to my house feeling weird because of what happened earlier.
"you stupid bitch, why you would do that?you are fat and ugly nobody would love you. you're own dad didn't love you why would he?" is all i could here in my head. "you aren't good enough for anyone, just stop talking to him."
i tried to stop think about everything, but failed badly ...
"uhh just shut up," i say to myself as i get something to take a shower.
"you aren't good enough" "why even live?" "kys" all i hear in my head again...
i walked into the bathroom with my pjs. i start taking my clothes off, one by one my clothes come off to reveal my scars. i've always hated looking at them and even myself, because all i can see is a weak person.
i get into the shower, i stand there for a while, letting the water get all over my face. i hear in the background "form" by vanner. (stan vanner !)
i get out of the shower and put my clothes on. i just wanted to get to bed. but before i went to bed, i got a text from yeonjun. it read:
yeonjun i hope you sleep well, i'm sorry if you felt weird about earlier i really enjoyed myself. i hope to continue to hang out. i never had anyone like you before. i really do like you, dani <3
"he is only tell you that because he feels bad, he doesn't even like you. don't text him back you'll be disappointed" i dropped those thoughts and texted back.
dani i don't feel any type of why. i'm glad you feel that way, i feel the same way. i'll love to hang again:) i really like you too, yeonjun <3
"why would you text back?" i waited for a text back.
yeonjun will that's fantastic, so you trying to hang, uhmm, tmr ?
dani yes that's fine :)
yeonjun perfect i'll come get you at 3, dress casual <3
dani okay ! see you tmr, goodnight love <3
yeonjun goodnight beautiful <3
as i read that message, my heart did something that it never did before. did i actually like him ? no no i'm fine right?
