ROYALS

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Alone, was what I felt as I walked through the doors of Hilerska. The coldness hit my face as my foot touched the wood floors, and the panic set in.

As christmas break was over, my time to pick myself back up was to. And I didn't even nearly finish.

It was our welcome back party, and sadly it was mandatory. Everyone arrived at 12pm to get situated, and have lunch in the dining room.

Walking down the hall, Eyes were on me and there was nothing I could do about that. Turning corners, and walking faster didn't help as I headed to my room

People there knew it was me. They knew who it was in the video. It was obvious, but no one dared to speak of it to me. At leaste to my face.

Coming back also made me realize what I had for me. What I needed to deal with. Which in total was only two things. August and Simon.

In my thoughts those two names had very different reactions. Which was funny to me.

For Simon it was, 'I miss you, I love you' and for August it was, 'I don't miss you, I hate you.'

One I betrayed, and the other betrayed me.

I hated coming back, and I hated this god damn school. But if I didnt come back, worse things would happen.

I collected my thoughts as I reached my room, opening my door. And the room was as it was when I left.

My bed made, my chair tucked pushed into the table, and Simons sweatshirt sprawled across the floor.

I kneeled down, grabbing it, and holding it close to me as I stood up. Keeping his his face in my mind.

It still smelled like him. And it made me feel at home. Which I hadn't felt for a while.

As as sat down on my bed, clutching the sweatshirt to me, hugging it tightly, I imagined him sitting there, hugging me. And telling me it was gonna be okay.

Telling me that we didnt do anyhting wrong, telling me he wouldn't leave.

But I'm the end it was me who left him, and I only had myself to blame.

Looking back at those days we had together, the secret kisses, the secret talks, made a tear fall down my cheeks.

Then I realized enough was enough, and I had to do something to fix what we had. So I got up, and I prepared to do what most would have dreaded in my position.

It wasn't time for lunch yet, but I knew he would already be here. He was always early, he never liked being late.

I was going out to the one place I hoped he would be, the lake.

Simon loved being outside, he told me it made him feel free. So I knew he had to be there.

I grabbed my coat, and headed out the door.

I took my time walking to the lake, taking in the air, feeling the breeze of air hit my face, and looking at the snow covered trees.

My mind was racing, and I felt as though I was going to be sick.

My mother told me before I left that I was never to talk to him again, that I had a legacy to protect. I was the only person left as crown prince. Erik left. Erik was gone.

I fought off the urge to turn around, to bury my feelings, but I couldn't. I loved him, he kept me alive. He kept me holding on after Erik left, he was the only person left I could trust.

Step after step I got closer and closer. My breath got shorter and shorter. And my heart got faster and faster.

I slowly turned the corner, looking out at the lake. I saw Simon sitting there, throwing rocks into the water.

I looked at him for a second, smiling.

It was as if time stopped, and I was with him again at last. I knew I had to fix things, I knew I needed to show him that I wanted to be with him.

As I opened my mouth to speak I saw another figure emerge, sitting down next to Simon.

I paused, as I saw them laughing. I didn't know who this guy was, I had never seen him in my life.

The guy flung his arm around Simon, and I couldn't take it anymore.

I quickly turned around, and headed back, completely heartbroken.

Hey guys! Sorry I took so long to get this chapter out, my parents found some incriminating stuff in my drawer, so I was grounded. Sorry if it was a little short, next chapters going to be long. Love ya <3