Love you to the moon and back; Hinata Shoyo x reader

Those Carmel Brown Eyes

You put the blade down and look at your red skin. Still left with some scars and blood from before. You look at the time. 3:52AM. "Dammit." You can't sleep when you try.

You take your Nutella jar and eat it with a spoon. You wanted to get out of the house. But you knew you couldn't.

You finally drifted off to sleep.

You woke up. 2:27PM. You forgot to clean up the mess you made last night. If your mom saw the mess you made, she'd beat you. Mostly because she'd say it's disgusting to leave napkins with blood all over and chocolate laying around.

Your mom didn't care that you cut. She knows you do it. She walked in on you doing it one time. She just stood there staring at you and then left the room. You felt she was either disappointed or sad. Most likely disappointed, but you didn't care.

You finished cleaning up a bit and went to the kitchen. You never eat breakfast, but you looked in the fridge anyways. But it was the same as always. Empty. Maybe not empty, but nothing your stomach wanted.

You wanted to go out to Sakanoshita's shop nearby to study. Your mom was sleeping so you just left her a note on the dining table. "Going to study at Sakanoshita's, I'll be back." You didn't want to wake up or she'd get mad.

You left the house with your books. When you walked inside you saw Ukai sitting behind the counter like usual. He saw you and put his cigarette down. He does that whenever you walk in. "Morning" you nod and smile "morning."

"Looking for anything." He asks you but you shake your head no. "Just came to study." He hums in reply.

As you read your books you hear the door open. You see a tall black-haired boy with someone else behind him, but you couldn't see what he looked like. You've seem him before. He goes to karasuno high and sometimes comes here, sometimes with other boys from there too.

"Two meat buns please." The tall boy asks. Ukai hands the boy two meat buns like he asked. "Thank you!" Another voice shouts. You look up from your book and see and a shorter male, with bright orange fluffy hair. You just ignored them and kept reading.

"You sure you don't want anything bum." He calls you that a lot, you didn't know why, he just did. It's probably because he never remembers your name. It caused the two boys to look at you, since you were the only other person in the store.

You shake your head no in return. The two boys are still staring at you. You act like you don't notice them. Suddenly the small ginger walks towards you. You try not to look at him, but you find it intimidating that he's just standing there staring at you and not saying a word.

"What are you doing?" He finally says something after years. You give him a firm tone. "Studying." That's all you wanted to say. You didn't want to start a conversation with him. You knew if your mom found out you were talking to someone the same thing would happen all over again from a couple years ago.

Your mother told you that if you give people attitude and a dry tone to the person talking to you, they won't want to have anything to do with you. She says people don't like to be around people who act that way. So that's what's you did.

"Oh, what school do you go to?" Is he seriously still talking to you? Was your tone not good enough? "I don't go to school." You tell him a little more firmly, hoping no more words come out of his mouth.

"Oh that weird. Why not?" Again more questions. Will he ever stop? "Listen I just don't and never did." You say with more attitude. That was good enough right? "mmm, I go to karasuno!" Trying to keep the conversation going.

"Awesome." You say sarcastically. You really wanted him to leave. If your mom found out about this, she'd kill you. He seems really nice but you didn't want anything to do with him. "I'd leave her alone ginger, she's trying to study."