Hey You! Miss Blind

01

NO MATTER how I tried to live, my mind and my soul cannot take it anymore. My body is now slowly drowning on a pond of lies and hatred. Do I deserve to live like this? Is everything should be really happened with me?

Wala na akong pakialam sa mga dinaraanan kong mga sasakyan. Mas humigpit ang hawak ko sa manibela ng kotse ko. This is really what I should do right now. To end everything.

"I HATE YOU ALL! I hate you mommy for leaving us! I hate you tita Karenn for torturing me! I hate all my friends and my university for making me suffer! I WANT TO DIE NOW!"

I screamed loudly and hit the driving wheel for several times. I cried so loud while driving in fast speed. Ayoko na, pagod na pagod na ako sobra.

I just want to live a peaceful life and be happy but now this is happening. Parang wala na akong karamay.

My friends betrayed me. What did I do to them? Wala akong maalala na ginawa kong hindi maganda sa kanila para magawa nila yung mga bagay na makakasama sa akin. We laughed, talked and face the problems together. Naaayos namin lahat dahil magkakasama kami. The almost perfect friendship is already there.

Lahat ng pangarap ko nawala na dahil sa ginawa nila. They spread a rumors about me having a relationship with a teacher and many more. It's so disgusting. Mahirap nang isa-isahin lahat kasi maraming nangyari sa akin.

Ang mommy ko naman, nagdivorce sila ni daddy. I don't know what's the reason. Sabi niya ay ayaw niyang iwan niya kami but she needs to leave us. Kinuha pa niya ang kapatid ko na baby palang at iniwan ako sa tita ko. Ano nga ba talaga ang dahilan?

Then Tita Karen, she stole my money and my bank accounts for her own sake. She's showing to everyone that she can be trusted but behind those beautiful image was a scary woman holding a baseball bat pointing at me. Ilang beses na niya akong sinaktan hindi lamang pisikal kundi emosyonal at mental. That wicked woman made me suffer so much. What she just said? I deserve everything that is happening to me right now.

I experienced hell on that house and I don't want to go back anymore.

Lahat naman ginawa ko ah? Nagpakabuti ako. Wala akong ginawang masama sa kanilang lahat. My studies are good, everything is good. I treated them as my family. Pero bakit walang mabuti na naibalik sa akin? That's so funny.

Bakit nangyayari sa akin 'to? Everyone betrayed me! Lahat sila! Ang sasama nilang lahat! Iniwan na nila akong lahat.

Wala na akong masasandalan pang kahit na sino. What's the point of living if I7m alread dead inside? There's no point to defend mysel anymore.

"Ayoko naaa!"

At malakas kong hinampas ang manibela ng kotse ko.

Daddy is calling...

Napatigil ako sa pagsigaw. My dad..

But I didn't answer the call. Mas binilisan ko ang pag drive. I hate my life, I hate everyone now.

And suddenly a loud bang heard on a road. Nakita ko nalang ang sarili kong duguan and almost dying.

Great. This is what I'm waiting for.

My father is such a good and loving father. And it's a shame if he knew that his daughter is involved in many scandals. His daughter is so weak. Wala siyang anak na mahina dahil kilala siya bilang magaling na doktor. He doesn't deserve to have a daughter like me.

Sorry daddy, pero sukong-suko na ang anak mo. I'm sorry.

"MY DAUGHTER is not answering my calls, manang Gie. Also Karenn, hindi niya sinasagot ang tawag ko!"