Friendship and Feelings

Chapter One

Chapter One

Every time our fingers touch, our skins bump with each other, all those unusual reactions I have within that probably only I can feel when our gazes locked. I just don't know what excuses I'll say to her anymore every time I blush in front of her.

"Catalina! I bought us lunch." Alexis waved at me while approaching the bench where I sat.

"Thanks." I scooted over so she can sit beside me.

She went to a restaurant nearby just to buy me the food that I can only eat outside our house: vegetables. All kinds of vegetables.

"How do you manage to eat vegetables all day?" She sighed as she opened the Tupperware for me.

"I don't know either." Sagot ko nalang. She won't shut up about this topic all day if I won't budge it.

"Man, I hate your parents. How can I take you on a meat date? Like ever?" She bursts into laugher, "Kidding, you know I love them." Bawi niya.

Tumingin ako sa ibang direksyon. How can she say that word easily? I hate her. I tried to ignored it and went on eating. But her eyes are gawking at me while eating, I can't ignore that. "Can you stop staring at me. I'm losing my appetite here."

"You're as rude as ever." Kumuha siya ng isang pirasong gulay, green leaf specifically. "Who do you think you are." Dagdag niya.

"Your best friend." I almost choked but that's the truth.

"Whatever, bestie. Quit eating like a princess and hurry up. Class is starting in 10 minutes."

She helped me pack things after I'm done eating and we went to our next class together. As much as I want to put some distance in our relationship for my own good, I can't. We took the same course in college and now we're both in our second year. We happened to have the same age as well and we debuted last year. Now we're turning 20. I hate it.

I watched her talk to our male block mates and that's the thing that I hate the most because I don't have any reason to feel this way at all.

"You good?" Someone tapped my shoulder from behind. I know that voice. "Nathan." Inalis ko ang paningin ko sa direksyon ni Alexis.

Nathan is also my friend and a block mate. He's the only person that knows the meaning of my stares at Alexis.

"If looks could kill, you'd be in jail right now. Calm down, sweetheart." Then he laughed. "Told you I know some hot chicks, want to try hanging out with them?"

"Told you they're not attractive in my eyes if they're not.. Alexis." Humina ang boses ko nang banggitin ko ang pangalan ng kaibigan ko.

He tsked, "I knew you're not some lesbian or bisexual, you're a friendsexual. You're only in love with your best friend."
I don't know. I really haven't put much thought into my sexuality. I don't want to explore it yet. It might turn up invalid knowing how complex this community is.
Umalis si Nathan sa tabi ko at lumapit kay Alexis. I glared at him when he put his arms around her shoulders. "Alexis, sweetie. I'm doing you a favor. Want to hang out later with your BFF out there?" Pagkatapos ay tinuro niya ako.

Alexis seems confused. "Lately, I've been noticing you two glaring at each other. What's the tea?" She asked.

"It's nothing," I answered.

"Okay, mahal." She sweetly uttered.

I gulped many times and calmly smiled when she unexpectedly sat on my lap. I even saw how Nathan smirked. Okay, self. You need to calm down. I blinked many times and bit my lips. Alexis is talking to Nathan and that asshole keeps on making her laugh. I can feel her butt for fuck sake.
This used to be a normal friendship gesture, her sitting on my lap, but it's now different after I conceded I have romantic feelings for her.

Dear Heavens and Earth, help me.

"Class settle down!" Our professor entered and everyone went back to their seats. His eyes landed on Alexis sitting on my lap. "This is a public area and a SCHOOL, Public Display of Affection is strictly prohibited. Go back to your seat, Miss Aldeni."

"Sir, they're best friends." Someone from our class shouted. Of course it's Nathan. Damn him.

"I don't care. What are you still doing Miss Aldeni?"

I heard Alexis chuckles before she kissed my left cheek and went back to her seat.

I swiftly brushed my hair into the back of my head. That's the sign that I'm stressed over something.

I don't like this nervousness every time Alexis does something like that. How could I rid it. I need to rid it. My chest is getting stuffier.

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