Sad Kodaline ☹ m.c

6 ☹ [lost]

Dear Calum,

Finally I got out of the hospital. I've spent most of my time with michael, he is really an amazing person, you know?

Today is the first day of the therapy group sessions. I'm so nervous, Cal.

I'm so lost. And Michael is so lost with me. We are lost.

I don't even know what I'm doing anymore.

Since that day I've never saw you again. I've never smelled you again. I've never dreamt about you again. I feel like my body and mind is trying to put you behind and I don't that. I will always love you, Calum Thomas Hood.

do not ever forget me while you're in heaven, deal?

Love,

Daisy. 💜

I put all my things together and I was totally (not that totally) ready for the group therapy sessions. As I got there, I sat next to a guy that looked like he didn't sleep for one month, But he was still very attractive.

"I'm Luke, welcome to the most boring hell." he whispered me.

The psychologist came and sat in the center of the circle.

"well, hello, everyone!" nobody said anything but she kept talking, and talking, and talking some shit that didn't matter at all. But that's when she informed us we have to introduce ourselves and talk about why we are here. My heart literally stopped, I can't talk about Calum. I'm not ready.

Was Luke's turn and I was next.

"Hi mates, I'm Luke. And I'm here because I have nightmare disorder also known as 'I'm fucked up'."

She even try to make Luke tell us more, but he just said "no.". Luke seemed cool. I mean he kinda looks like a sarcastic asshole but besides that, he seems very nice.

It was my turn and I was shaking like hell.

"oh, hi, I'm daisy. hm, I tried to commit suicide 2 weeks ago, I'm feeling very lost and sad, I guess that's it."

"why did you try that?" the woman who I was starting to hate asked me.

"I can't tell you. I can't talk about it."

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ily 🌼