Not fine

Please

Please writen on my arm
told you that I'm not fine.
There was kill me too,
so I gave you knife and was beggin' you.
"Please kill me I need to die,
hell's the place where I'm alive."
But you were afraid and so was I
you said you can't and droped the knife.
You laid down on the floor,
You were crying and I swore.
"I love you, but I have to go.
I need to die and you just chose,
that's not the way you want to fight.
I don't see a gentle way
to say this but good bye."
Then I toked the knife and look at you,
tears were falling down from you.
I said that I need to go,
walked away and closed the door.
I died that night all alone
and I'm happy that I'm gone.