Earning his trust

His comment.

After lunch six seventh and eighth period flew by and And more than several times I caught myself thinking about Ian. Hot perfect he is. Just everything. He's my dream guy. The looking guy I've ever laid my eyes on .

Ian Kingston
His hazel green and blue eyes.
His dirty blonde hair , slightly high lightened by the sun.
The way he gave me those stares, where his eyes met mine then locked on my lips then back to my eyes.

I know I'm dating nick. We've been steady since freshman year . But I can't help but think about how perfect Ian is , he makes me feel perfect , the way Nick used to make me feel. Ian is so genially a happy person , I mean not that I know him or anything , but you know the twinkle in a happy persons smile it's impossible to miss. And Ian has it.

I try to shake myself from thoughts about Ian , so I think about Nick. But When I think about Nick, I think about abuse. Every single bruise , mark , scar , scratch. So I can't think about Nick , without my feeling like my heart is being torn out of my chest and stomped on a billon times. But Ian. Ian makes my heart feel replenished , like there's not a single rip or tear in my broken hideous heart .

But I'm still faithful though. Even though , Nobody else would bear the pain he puts me through. I would never put Nick through the pain of me cheating. He hurts me by I know for Nick , being cheated on is the ultimate pain. And if I did ever use that. I'd wait till be used my ultimate pain , and he knows what that is. So , I would never do anything like that to Nick , unless

I can't tell you why and I can't tell you how many times he's push me around because I don't go to third or second base with him, or do something that he wants.

All nick wants is sex. And if this was anybody else. If that's all somebody else wanted. I wouldn't stick around.

But I'm just scared to end things with Nick. I'm afraid he'll hurt me if I do. So I try to avoid thoughts that involve Nick.

Today I stood up to Nick , which was pretty scary. I haven't texted him after school. I normally don't but today I was just avoiding it.

Today I didn't really want anything to do with him. Luckily , He never texted.

He never just want to talk. Or tell me I'm pretty or how much he likes me or how much he loves me.

But the most amazing thing happened tonight. Ian found my Instagram.

I know this because he commented on one of my pictures.

He commented
" i'm really sorry and I don't mean to sound like a creep. But you're so beautiful. Nick is a really lucky guy".

I think I just died. He thinks I'm beautiful. What if I broke up with nick. What if I dated Ian. Why am I still with nick. Am I really beautiful like he says. Would Nick kiss me. What I fall in love with him.

And these are all the thoughts, that I know I shouldn't be thinking.

"Bing " and there it was. Nick texted.