Mistakes

Chapter 1: Intro

December 31st, 2018, It was the day I gained the confidence to ask out someone i've spent just texting everyday for a couple of weeks, and I was 13 at that time, so I was dating a lot, constantly not lasting not that much with other girls, and not really feeling anything with anyone, I didn't cry over a girl, and I wasn't really the center of attention in school, since I was quite really energetic with my mood and was a good person to talk to, but there was this one girl in my school that in 5th grade, I saw her and as any other love story, I gained like little feelings, but never talked to her at all, since we had different friend groups. I was more in the soccer kids group as if thats a good way to describe the group I would hang out with, and she was with the smart people and quiet ones. Although, I've only seen her in school, there was something more crazier thats not really believable, but actually true. She was my neighbor by 1 house. It was a pretty demented idea for me at that age, like someone from your school that you had a tiny bit of feelings for lived like 10 seconds away from you. Well the being neighbors thing caught my moms attention that there was another person from my school living in the same street as me, so obviously like any other mother, she became best friends with Michelle's mom, and randomly everything between them was moving so fast, and both came to an agreement that Michelle's mom will give me rides in the morning to my bus stop, since me and Michelle had the same bus stop, and my mom will pick us up in the afternoon. Well that started in 6th grade, and our bus rides never really lasted, because I would get into a lot of trouble, For example, I got in trouble for drawing a huge penis with a washable marker in the side of the bus, also when I got into a fist fight with another kid in the bus, because he was calling me childish names. That was in 6th grade, and those times I would be suspended off the bus for a week, I would get picked up in a car with Michelle, so she had to switch with me too, since we were getting picked up together. Now moving on to 7th grade, I got my last ever chance, so if I did something else on the bus that leads me to being suspended, I will be banned off any bus for the school year. After that warning I was good, I didn't involve myself into things I know that will have consequences in return. After all that, I was like one of those kids that sat in the back of the bus, so I moved up to like the middle section of the bus. Back to what I was saying about asking out Michelle. You may be asking on how I started talking to her, well it started off as on one bus stop whenever my mom was running late on picking us up, so I told Michelle if she can call my mom, if shes on her way. Michelle and I we never like did eye contact like at least once, and that was the first ever time I said something to her, but she would never say something back to me, like at least "sure" "ok" or even nod her head at me, she would just ignore me or just do what I asked for her. After she called my mom, we just stood standing by the stop sign waiting until my mom came. It was awkward and silent, so my weird ass decided to ask her something extremely cringe, and it was "Do you like 6ix9ine". It was a rapper that was really popular during that time, and she just looked at me and just looked away. It was the most awkward thing in the world, and I was panicking because I didn't know if she knew i meant the rapper or sex position. Well with a little bit of blessing of god, my mom arrived just about time, because I did not want to stand in that awkward position anymore in my life. After I got home, I ate, went to room, play video games, and just took a small nap. As I took that nap, I just randomly decided to text Michelle, to at least be friends, and to not be in another awkward situation like earlier that day. I know what your think, Yes... I went on my moms phone and got Michelle's number to save it on my phone. Weird I know right, well whatever, so I decided to text her that same night. You know, a little " Heyyy" and "What you doing?", you know small conversation. Now moving to December 31st, 2018, it was about 11:30. Half an hour before new years, so my dumb ass decided that it was my time to confess to Michelle, on how much I was starting to like her, and that I wanna be with her and shit. After only being a couple of weeks of me talking to her. —-