Just A Little Bit Of Your Heart

chapter:12

"it's okay if you think I'm insane"

Cause I'm for you

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Ache in his heart ,throb in his body and distress in his mind.A feeling which he can't share with anyone ,cause there are no words which can describe how someone ripped his soul apart from his body, there are no words which can describe his tears ,which are always there in his eyes. whenever he try to smile he end up with crying.He is disgust of his soul now, he can wash his body, he can take morphine for his pain, but who will heal his broken heart which kept bleeding ,there is not even a bandage for heart.

"Zainn will feel disgust of me".

"Maybe zainn won't love me anymore".

"Do I look ugly now".

Though he wanted to avoid these lines which are like curse for him ,but he can't ;the thought of zayn don't loving him haunts him more than anything.

It's been two weeks of that incident and he is trying his best to avoid zayn ,not only zayn he is avoiding everyone .He always feels like that someone is touching his body and that's why it doesn't matter how many times he takes his shower, it's not enough.Sometimes he would wake up at 3a.m just to wash his body , his dreams are converted into his nightmares.

In all this painfull days there is only one light "his zainn" .His zainn's smiley face is still enough to brighten up his life ,which is darker than dark alley, darker than universe, no hope of light.

He started spending his days hiding under his duvet clutching the pillows on his chest, there is always a fear in his eyes .

Aiden didn't tried anything after that cause according to him harry is HIS now, as he claimed his body.

But only fool thinks that way , cause claiming someone's body has nothing to do with love.Love has only to do with claiming someone's soul.And harry's soul is already kidnapped by his zayn years ago.

They are one soul just in two different bodies.

Someone had rightly said that if we already knew that love is a poison then also we'll drink that poison, no matter what.Harry and zayn was aware that their love is not that easy ,then also they fell for eachother ;well it was not their fault cause we don't decide who we fell for ,we just fell.

On the other side Zayn was devastated and Aiden was very happy by seeing zayn's condition, though Katherine tried to convince him that harry is fine, but he knows that something is wrong, cause his harry can't live without seeing his face ,then why he is ignoring him.

"Harry baby open the door please it's mamma"

"Noh I I'm scared"
He whispered while hiding himself in the corner,and tears started wellding up in his eyes.

"Harry it's me, please open the door please baby"

"Noh mamma ,he um he'll come and he'll touch me again um I won't"

After fifteen minutes of pleading he agreed and opens the door with his trembling hands,his skin is pale now and that gorgeous eyes have already lost their shine ,and smile is sad with him .

Katherine embraced him in his arms and he started hiccuping while mumbling so many incoherent things.

"Everything will be fine, please don't cry your mamma is here now ,and I don't like tears in baby eyes"..
She said while wiping his tears with the hem of his gray gown.

But he kept hiccuping while murmuring Aiden's name again and again..

"What happened ,Aiden did something wrong tell me I'll scold him".

But he shakes his head cause he still remembers, what Aiden told him after crushing his soul into thousand pieces.

"If anyone comes to know about this ,then next time it will be more painfull for you"

"Oh ok so my little harry who used to tell me about his dreams will lie to me now".

"Noh mamma um I---i can't".

"Tell me or I'm not your mamma"

And harry hugged her tightly like he used to with his mother whenever he woke up with a bad nightmare about monsters.

"No um don't leave me mamma ,please don't leave me or he'll touch me again".

And Katherine knows what harry was talking about .She started rubbing his back ,but as she was about to say something to calm his nervs her tears betrayed her ,she started crying while holding harry in her arms.

"please don't cry mamma please".

"I'm sorry I'm so sorry it's all my fault".
Harry wiped her tears with his trembling fingers and kissed her forehead.

"No it's not um don't cry I don't like when my mamma cry ".

They both remain in the same position sitting on the floor holding eachother, Katherine has a lot to say ,but she don't know from where to start.There was a feeling of guilt in her heart, cause she was the one who had always tried to push harry to be with Aiden and Aiden did this with her harry.

Harry layed his head in her lap while holding her hand and Katherine started massaging his scalp.

After few minutes of silence, she whispered something which was very shocking for both of them .

"Harry"..

"hmm"

"um do you love zayn"

"No mamma I can't love someone I'm marr-----".
He started saying the same line which Katherine taught him since childhood.

"Harry I didn't ask ,you can or not ,I asked; you do or not ,tell me honestly um don't lie to your mamma".

And harry nodded his head .

Katherine cupped his cheeks with both of her hands and kissed his forehead .

"He loves you too so much and he'll always make you happy which you deserve ".

Harry was confused that why Katherine was saying such things.

"But for that you um both can't be here ,this is is a cursed place for love , you've to be strong for yourself and zayn and I promise that,um I'll bring happiness back in your life ".

"I'm sorry that my one child has ruined you, but my zayn is not like that ,he'll always make you happy baby I promise"...

"mamma please it's not your fault"
He whispered but Katherine kept mumbling sorry for the mistakes which she never committed .

"I'll send zayn he is dying to see you ,tell him everything, cause your first relationship with him is of friendship and then he is your lover. Don't hide anything from him and um then we will decide how to shipped both of you from this prison".
She said and kissed his forehead for the last time.