dear seonghwa
i don't know how much longer i can take, it hurts...it hurts so much. but i don't wanna live if it isn't possible to love you. the closer you get to yeosang the more it hurts and it gets harder to hide the hanahkai. oh also mingi found out and he keeps pressuring me to get the surgery but i really don't want too. my last week may be next week also...i feel the thorns and stems poking at my lungs.
love, hongjoong
