Misery loves company

Chapter 11: Deny,Deny,Deny

Misery loves company

Chapter 11: Deny,Deny,Deny

Hey guys thank you so much for all your support and love on my story it makes me so so happy you have no idea. You guys are incredible and I always look forward to your thoughts on each chapter. We are officially a little more than halfway. I am so excited to show you the ending but you are going to hate me a little before then. Anyways back to the story.

P.S~this can be sensitive for some people
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Denial is a useful defense mechanism until it's not.~Rosalind Kaplan
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Leonard's pov:

I finally heard the door open as Penny and Raj's laughter filled the room. They came home late as always. I put my gown on and walked to the tv room to see Penny completely wasted again like it was her pattern.

I had enough of this. I had enough of waiting for her to come home worried I would get a call from the hospital saying my wife has alcohol poisoning or something. I hated that I couldn't help her. I hated that I was terrified to speak to her about it. I didn't want to get angry I tried so hard not to get angry. My mom always said to me that you make everything worse by crying and getting mad it is just best to let it go. Save yourself from the embarrassment and drama.

I now thought of Sheldon and what he would say to all of this. No not now. I couldn't. I refused to. Everything was okay. I needed to focus on Penny. I watched her and Raj talking while laughing as she could barely stand straight. Raj looked okay though. I lost it seeing him. Seeing on how much worse he made this for me. He didn't even bother to help her through this he just joined her. I felt the anger course through my veins now replacing the worry I felt. This was going to be bad. I just needed to breathe.

"Where have you been ? I have been worried about you and you didn't want to mention to me that you were out drinking again. " I said sounding more angry than I was meaning to.

"Oh now you are concerned for me. Now you care about me ? " Penny said with so much distaste in her voice.

"Of course I care about you. You are my wife. " I said feeling the concern replace the anger. I couldn't do this tonight not with her like this. Just let it go Leonard," Look you have been drinking so we will talk about this when you are sober. " I said then found myself muttering under my breathe," I wonder how long I have to wait for that day to come."

I turned around to go back to the room now untill she spoke again so I faced her.

"No. You say what you mean by that.I drink to much. I cry to much. I feel to much. I'm sorry I am human okay ?"

"I am not saying you aren't human Penny. Of course I want you to cry and feel but not at the expense of your liver. We have a daughter did you forget that ? A girl who needs her mother. Not only might she lose one of her favourite uncles but now she might lose her mom to. I know you are sad about Sheldon. I am to but I am begging you to stop resulting to drinking to resolve the problem. " I said feeling the lump form in my throat thinking about my unconscious best friend and my daughter.

"Oh Leonard is sad about Sheldon. Sure doesn't look like it. You have refused to see him. You left me when I needed you the most last night. You weren't there for Leo and Amy. You aren't there. You refuse to talk about him. It is the first time in how long that you have said his name. Do you know how that makes me feel Leonard ? That we can't help each other through this. That I can't help you through this. That you ignore it like nothing happened but it did happen Leonard. Sheldon could be dying right now and you are focused on my drinking. I am sorry that these past weeks it has been a better husband than you have been . " Penny said trying to cover the crack in her voice by being more angry.