Misery loves company

Chapter 15: Please don't go

Misery loves company

Chapter 15: Please don't go

Hey guys :) just wanted to give a big thank you to all the love I received on the last chapter even if it wasn't the best. This chapter isn't that great either but don't worry the ending of it makes it better. The feelings in this chapter are very intense but I hope you enjoy reading it.

The song I listened to for inspiration for this chapter is Don't forget me by Nathan Wagner who is super underated and talented so that's probably why it is a little sadder but like I said it is worth it.

P.S ~This chapter is very sensitive for certain people so please be aware.
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I think the hardest part of losing someone, isn't having to say goodbye, but rather learning to live without them. Always trying to fill the void, the emptiness that's left inside your heart when they go.
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Amy's pov:

I could hear him and I am sure I heard him say goodbye. I heard him say goodbye. It couldn't be. I refused to believe it. No . He wasn't leaving me. I got up now taking all the drips in my skin out despite everyone trying to keep me in bed. I managed to make my way out the door then to the ICU room seeing Wil with him but he looked fine. I felt relief enter my lungs. Maybe it was just me.

I was watching him now talk to Sheldon," I'm so sorry . This is all my fault. This is all my fault. " He said crying on his chest.

"What's your fault ?" I asked curious.

He got a fright by my voice but once he saw me he started apologizing to me.

"I'm so sorry this is all my fault Amy. I did this. "

"What are you talking about ? What did you do ?"

"I killed him Ames. I am the reason he is dying. I did this. " He said sobbing in his hands.

I couldn't seem to grasp what he was saying,"What?" was all I could say and before he could say anything more we heard talking on the intercom.

'Code blue in 107. Code blue in 107. I repeat we have a code blue in 107'

I then realised the ringing in my ears was Sheldon's machine. He was flatlining. Again. So I heard it. I heard him say goodbye. He was saying goodbye. I couldn't feel my legs anymore. I felt the doctors push past me to save him. Howard ran to the room and got Wil out which he willing went with because he looked like he was going to be sick.

"Sheldon !Please ! Sheldon! Please !Sheldon ! No . Sheldon ! " was the only words I could scream like it was the only words in existence.

The doctors were telling someone behind me to get me out of here but all I could do was scream. Scream in hope he will come back. In hope he will come back to me. I felt someone tug on my arm but I refused to leave. I couldn't leave. I couldn't feel my legs. I was watching them revive him but I knew he was gone. The machine told me my husband was dead as the long beep stuck in my head. The never ending deafening sound that I will forever hear. I was now turned and Georgie was dragging me out with Bernadette with him. They dragged me out of the room into the hallway.

I fell to my knees now to weak to stand."Sheldon" I said one last time as I held my chest like it could make the pain go away. All I could do was cry as I felt the weight get heavier. I couldn't move. I felt a part of me left. I felt a part of me gone. Bernadette got on her knees now hugging me not quite sure what to do. I couldn't do this anymore. I couldn't feel like this anymore. I was tired. This was to hard.
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