i remember watching your coffin descend into the brown earth.
you said you would never leave me.
was that a lie?
hands shaking
eyes blurry and red
all i could see was green
green used to remind me of hiking with my family
green like my first bike
green as my favorite dress i wore all the time when i was 6.
now the only thing i think about when i see green is
you.
you are my green.
but now my life is gray.
