strangers with memories. / norenmin

five

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scared.

that's what jeno felt. his eyes trawled over to renjun's bloody body on the bed. he's fucking scared yes, but what the hell happened? the nurses gave up on bringing jeno backed to reality and just focused on keeping renjun alive.

❝no... no... renjun will never...❞, he kept repeating those words, praying that somehow it's all an illusion. the unconscious person wasn't renjun. it's another person that just looks like him. but jeno knew. he knew that the person is in fact renjun, the boy he loves the most.

jeno started going back to his senses, he felt tears around his eyes, threatening to fall. he can hear nurses yelling renjun's name over and over again, trying to bring him back. his mind kept telling him that he should be inside the room, trying to save renjun as well. But he just couldn't move.

he just stood there, watching the nurses connect renjun to different devices. his heart ached. his heart ached, knowing that renjun, his renjun, tried to commit suicide. he couldn't help but thought that maybe it was him who made renjun like this.

unable to stand the sight in front of him anymore, jeno ran to the bathroom. pushing the doors as he ran to the nearest sink and threw up. jeno doesn't even know why he threw up. once he released everything he ate that day, he looked up the mirror to meet his own reflection. his face was pale and his lips were slightly purple. he shook his head aggressively, trying to get the sight of renjun's bloody body out from his sight.

he turned on the tap and threw water on his face a few times before turning it off. he looked at his reflection again before slowly falling down to his knees, breaking down completely. he cried out loudly, face buried in his hands. luckily, no one was in the toilet at that time, but jeno couldn't care less.

the boy sobbed and sobbed. yes, he was worried about renjun, heck he doesn't even know if he was even alive or not. of course, he would get the answer if he just went out the bathroom, but the question is, does he dare to?

normal jeno would never admit it but, he loves renjun so so much. the chinese boy brings him so much joy. sure, there's jaemin too, but renjun, he's just... renjun. it's like jeno feels care-free and giddy whenever he's with jaemin, his bubbly personality never fails to make jeno's day. but renjun makes him feel loved. don't get him wrong, he feels loved when he's with jaemin too but renjun, jeno just feels the need to protect the older male with his life. well that's what jeno swore when they first got together.

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❝nono! nana! come here!❞

❝what's wrong, injunnie?❞, the older asked as the two boys made their way towards the beautiful chinese.

❝look!❞, the oldest giggled as he shoved three flowers in front of the two younger's faces.

❝flowers? what's so interesting about that?❞, the tallest said, making the oldest roll his eyes.

❝these aren't just flowers, nono! look, they're freesias!❞, the youngest chirped.

❝thank you, nana.❞, the oldest smiled at the youngest in which the youngest returned a smile back.

❝so, what's so special about them?❞, the tallest asked, still not getting why the other two are so excited about flowers.