strangers with memories. / norenmin

sixteen

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❝so, mr huang-❞

❝renjun. just renjun.❞

the man in front of the said boy, lower his head to stare at the boy, his glasses falling down to his before looking away and adjusted his glasses.

'so, renjun, how are you feeling?', the man asked again as he flipped his chart.

❝as usual. you know, hyung-❞

❝it's doctor moon when we're in session, renjun.❞

renjun scoffed silently. he literally just called him mr huang. how did his brother even found this 'famous super good therapist' or so his brother described.

❝you know, mr moon, ever since i came to therapy my life's been making less more sense.❞

❝which part? is it your mental health or is it about jaemin and jeno?❞, his therapist asked, still not looking up his chart.

❝both.❞

❝you gotta be more specific than that, renjun.❞

the chinese boy sighed before continuing, ❝it's like i know jeno and jaemin are my boyfriends and i feel my heart going crazy whenever i'm with them. but for somehow, i can't... relax. like something is pulling me back, stopping me. you know what i mean, hyung?❞

❝i know, renjun. here, have some tea. relax a little.❞, taeil smiled at the boy, passing him a small cup.

❝thanks, hyung.❞

❝now, what about your mental health?❞

as soon as those words left taeil's mouth, the younger's smile fade away and looked down.

❝i don't know, hyung...❞, renjun muttered.

the older kept quiet just in case renjun wanted to continue. though he quickly pushed away the thought when he heard soft cries from the younger.

❝renjun...❞

❝i don't know, hyung! i really don't. whenever i try to think why i jumped, i get nothing in return!❞

the therapist put down the chart on his table, before getting up to make his way to the younger. he slowly patted the younger's head before taking a tissue from his pocket, passing it to the chinese boy.

❝i'm scared, hyung. everyone's telling me i should get my memories back but i don't wanna. i'm scared to find out who i really am!❞

❝it's okay, renjun. let it out, you're safe here.❞

renjun sobbed and sobbed, he felt bad for the older who had to listened to his heartbreaking wails. but he just felt broken at that moment. he's actually glad that chenle got him this therapist. at least there's someone that makes him to talk about that day.

❝you know, hyung? i know i'm broken but the funny part is i don't know where i'm broken.❞, renjun managed to get out a few words through the sobs.

❝it's okay, renjun. take your time, don't rush.❞

they stayed quiet for a while before the older spoke up again.

❝the nightmares didn't stop, did they?❞

the chinese boy nodded at taeil's question. what nightmares you asked? it was the most horrible thing anyone could experience. everyone he cares about leaves him when they found out who he really is. again and again, the nightmares didn't seemed like they wanted to stop. and it was driving renjun insane.