The Darkside1

Chapter 1: Enlightenment★

I had to end her with all that she had afflicted she was beginning to take control that was the only way I could dispatch her, and try to move on I know few of us had to deal with our Darksides each now and then but mine was cloaked in my head .And, it reminded me everyday that there was two sides to me yeah, like a two in one type of person one is the sweet light headed girl and, the other is just this person with fury and the hard wall shedded up against the heart. Sometimes it made me think of things I could have done to the people that hurt me and it's all bloody in my mind.

Desiree

I'm everything but normal growing up has been tough I am bulimic and yes I have tried it more than once. I was diagnosed with hemophilia when I was just nine it's a condition where by there's difficulties breathing I have been told quite a number of stories about how my mom had lots of difficulties too whiles giving birth to me.
I came forth a week after her due date that's when I was born into the Ellison family.

I am not about to bore you with my life living in it already is something else.

Desiree Ximena Ellison that's me the only daughter to the Ellison family and only child which is not very exciting to think about personally, I wouldn't paste us perfect family but... okay let me cut this family charade.

It is thee hottest month of the year
not really based on the weather or...is it? anyways it's summer people! And, i have no summer like dress to wear.

My mom will be so glad only because she has told me numerous times to change my way of style that, it puts me out to be a tomboy or probably lesbian.

Well my best friend is supposed to be here any minute..we have to go to this party a student organized.

And she was invited to the party and invited me so I asked her to get me something to wear on her way to my place.

"Sweetie your dad and I will be out for sometime and be careful please"my mom yells from downstairs.

My parents they met at an experted place and time from then they've been inseparatable love birds. I am suppose to look at their beautiful situation and at least believe this thing called "love "but....

I'd always seen love to be a fairy tale for some reason and most don't end well.

Love is parasitic it makes you do things without thinking at least that what I thought before I met this boy, I don't know what it is I feel I try to fight it but it's really hard i was okay before I met him but I'm alive now for some reasons those are not the same things right? "ughh"

I mean I've enough things to be afraid of, love can't kill.
doomed! love is part of life.

I can't recall when I started having these affections for him, but it's been decades now.

We had the sixth grade and every other class together I probably didn't know what love meant by that time but I do now I guess.
Oh and watching him across the halls.

Just staring at him takes my mind on a trip "argh" I'm getting too dramatic about this.

I don't want to fantasize about him because...

He's everyone's dream guy probably handsome, lovely eyes, well groomed hair, tall and his abI bet they can break woods.

And to top that up he's captain of the lacrosse team that makes him a thousand times hotter, I recently heard from school that he broke up with Britney Mark-miller that brat.

She is a worse nightmare and a bully even basically my nightmare I am so glad they broke up to be honest me what comes of it, he's never going to be with me ever for the hundredth time or apparently I'm not even his type.