"Hi Liam", he nods
"Let's study in the library" he said as he start to walk pass me
"I guess i haven't had the time to introduce myself properly im Desiree.
I sit behind you in biology class [nervous Chuckle]
(Liam)you came here help to me study let's just do that.
Oh..ok I said back awkwardly
(On phone with Meg)
Gist me spill.. did you have your first kiss already? she said in a squeaky voice.
Nothing happened meg I said in a low tone. I think he hates me or something
You know the whole time I was tutoring him I tried to break the silent cause it was getting awkward.
He shut me up in a rather polite manner but it still felt rude ugh.
(Meg)Oh babe I don't think he hates you, you just exaggre..... Wait!where are you at the moment?
Mm I came to my quiet place I said
(Meg)Oh no Des please don't try anything stupid swear on me please.
No Meg I just came here to think and have some good air and don't worry I am fine I'm just exhausted.
(Meg) everything will be good this is not big deal take care babe, I love you.
I love you too.. I said and hanged up.
My mind is my peaceful place where I live in sometimes I can be a hard thinker It's basically what I do every now and then and sometimes it feels like there's another person in control and all that person can think about is death and how peaceful it may feel.
I take a step and all I want is to be gone. I've had suicidal thoughts growing up, I don't how but I did, so I had to go for counselings over and over again but it was no good to me. Until I found my quiet place it is the only place I know i find peace and take a rest from suicidal thoughts. Megan my best friend is the only person who knows and the only one I can trust about this place it's a big empty 9 feet building meg finds it dangerous but it's the only place that calms my heart and mind.
***
Weeks Later
It's been weeks and nothing do you think I'm trying too hard the other time he came said hello and smirked at me which I thought was cute then the silence breaks again ugh did I leave my life whole fantasizing about him and not be noticed even if I was to be standing right in front of him this whole love thing is so exhausting
(Frustrating grunt).
Meg, Megan are you even listening?
"Wha-t... She stammers
Forget it, I am just blabbing about how I will never find love.
"Look you are amazing, beautiful and smart. And if he doesn't see that then he is a jerk or probably need to check his sight" meg said smiling
(Bell rings)
Got to go Sir Germain is giving out our biology test we had last week today see you later Meg.
"Byeee girl"
Hey! Desiree Right?
Yes I answered.
YOU ARE READING
The Darkside1
Romance"Do you want me to stop?" he asks, his voice sounds faint from all the making out. I gasped for air and kiss Liam even before I could give an answer.
