oh... hello. In this log, I'm going to blabber random stuff about writing and my current projects.
I do have a feeling everyone else forgot about me as much as I have forgotten everything I've done and written here. Re-reading it was a torture, to the point I couldn't bear finishing everything else. It was so damn cringey, holy hell. XD Guess I should work even harder in order to not disappoint my future self, but oh well, gotta clean up my mess.
Just like how I changed my journal's story cover and title, I plan to give the entire thing a... makeover, perhaps? Or maybe, a reconstruction. However, I'm only making changes in terms of it's format, not the contents. Unfortunately, I thought it'd be best to leave my embarrassing past here, for reasons that I am undeniably lazy and it is quite dumb to rewrite it, I mean, this ain't a story, just my plain cringey thoughts.
Speaking of rewriting, damn, I just wanna say that it's gonna be a lot of work if ever I decide to rewrite Pandemonium. XD It's lacking a lot in terms of description and plot clarity, and unfortunately, I still haven't reached the level of writing I hope I'd be able to reach. During the past few days, or weeks, I've been trying to hone my writing. By writing, of course. XD
It's not going as smooth and easy as I hoped, but I made teeny progresses I consider notable because I like to give myself a pat in the back after doing hardly anything. Working is a large hurdle for a lazy ass for me, sigh. I'm writing this to gather my thoughts, though I'm hoping this won't give a notif to anyone. Mhm, it's quite effective. My brain is working, well now that's fucking amazing.
I don't really know why I'm making "tremendous" efforts--of course, this is an exaggeration--over something I'm not good at in the first place, but hey, writing is the only hobby that stuck with me all these years. Though I'm not really consistent with it, I always end up doing it again after a year long hiatus or so.
Oh gosh, I hope I won't stop writing again any time sooner. At least let me rewrite one of my books, please.
Ah, huhu. T__T I don't even have a stable plan I can stick to. Or like, a goal. Maybe I should rewrite Pandemonium first...? Do I have what it means to do that? XD Am I good enough yet? Probably not.
I don't wanna abandon it... At least. Should I speed-write it instead and finish it, then rewrite it? XD Or should I start fresh with another book? That's probably a terrible idea.
Oh, speaking of, I've been shamelessly working on another story! It's my Boku no Hero Academia fanfic, entitled, Metanoia. Oh, it's a tentative title though, since it's kind of an overused word. The core plot points is pretty much finalized already, but there's still a lot to work on, that's for sure.
Pretty much, it's about this girl named Hisa Homura with a terrible memory--just like her creator--as a side effect of her quirk and due to the fact she's suffering from PTSD as well--except for this part, I am just simply a plain idiot--trying to overcome her weaknesses and strives to be stronger and rise to the top. As for the reason, I don't really mind spoiling you, but she lived in a discriminatory household where women are treated poorly. In hopes of trying to prove her grandfather wrong, she aspires to be strongest, save people in order to gain approval and worth. But of course, it wasn't initially that way.
That's too heroic. A bit far-fetched from my antagonistic protagonist style. Let's see... I don't know how common this is since I haven't read other fanfics, but she's the type to save people unequally. Cough, Fushiguro, cough. One of her quotes goes, "I'll protect only the ones I'm fond of. People I don't like can go ahead and die for all I care. (...) I will... choose who I will save."
Aha, you see, it's a normal belief but not really appropriate for someone that's been forced to go to a hero school or even for someone that's bound to be a hero against her will in the first place. I hope I'll be able to write a clear flow of her character development, and since I'm feeling like a perfectionist right now, it's gonna be a challenge.
I'd say Hisa is a bit too crazy and playful, I mean, that's my type of character. XD It's hard to be unique in the MHA universe since there's a lot of diversity and variation among the existing characters already, but all I can say is I'll do my best. XD Though, her quirk is actually purposely similar with Katsuki Bakugo-Ignition, the ability to ignite anything she touches, or anything that touches her. There's more to it, but the details are to be tackled in the actual story.
Oh, and heheh. We're having MHA!Kyoko as well. No way in hell I'm leaving Kyoko behind, lmao. She has a significant role to play too, but of course, her backstory is notably different from Persona. Her core beliefs and personality is what's important, while the rest are adapted into the environment. Fight evil with evil, that's her initial goal. A vigilante. Based from her first name, which means 'void child,' I decided her quirk will be Void, the ability to nullify the effects of another's quirk upon pjysical contact. Quite different from Aizawa's erasure but both has the same nature. Again, there's more to it, but that's the base idea.
I'd like to discuss more, but that's for a different log. Or maybe, I just want to jump to the next topic. XD Next, I'm gonna briefly discuss another story I've been again, shamelessly thinking of.
A Bungou Stray Dogs fanfic. I just watched it recently, and I can't help but be hooked. Seriously, it's one of the best animes I've ever watched. It's lively structure, fast paced but not rushed events, exceptional animations... I've liked everything about it so far! I'm probably missing out 20% of the references, unfortunately, but now I seriously want to research about their real-life counterparts.
Anyway, I've taken a liking among these characters-Chuuya, Dazai, Ranpo, and Akutagawa. Is that even an important detail, lmao. Oh, maybe it is. It's always the attractive guys that evokes me to write. XD
I won't be discussing much about my OCs for that project yet, since I better do it in a different log, but I'll briefly introduce them-Fumiko Enchi and Masako Togawa with the abilities "The Waiting Years" and "A Kiss of Fire" respectively. I'm honestly lost, I genuinely don't know which story I should work on first. TwT
Aaah, anyway, I'm sleepy. I genuinely missed everyone here, I won't mention them since I'm too shy and I don't want to pop up in their notifs, but one of them is a name that starts with 'I' and ends with 'a' lmao, what's up with the mystery. Did I actually turn into a socially-awkward bean after all these months? XD
It'd be better if you didn't read this, but thanks anyways. You must have extreme level of patience if you reached here.
I hope everyone's safe in the midst of this fucking pandemic! Take care always and stay at home. <3
