I repeat the morning process starting with checking my phone ending with me dragging my aching body out of the shower I put on blue sweats and a black sweater with a smile face on it.False advertisement.
I then go and put on my cons rushing out so I don't have to eat but my mom spots me and basically begs me to eat something I grab a peice of toast and try to walk away but she tells me to eat it in front of her . I eat it basically feeling my insides expand and when I'm done I "smile" and walk out the door as soon as I get a little down the street I throw up eww then I run and catch the bus and the same thing happens .questions,silence, music,single tear. Once at school I hide but my bully spots me shit I say to myself he walks over and begins calling me names I stay strong on the outside because inside inside I'm broken then he slaps me im talking to you he screams I look at him scared then he pushes me against a locker hard I feel my rib cage smash against the metal.he walks up to me punches me in the stomach I fall to the ground and he kicks me over and over again and I wonder where the hell are the teachers then I realize im sorrounded I fell a hand grab me up and begin to carry me I pray for them because I'm fat I'm probably breaking there spine I think they lay me on a soft bed i blackout i wake up what seems like hours later and I can hear faintly them talking to what sounds like my mom but something wrong and I'm in what looks like a hospital bed I look down and see bruises old and new then the doctor walks in and he starts talking and all I hear is broken and that I won't be going to school, that good I think, until I've healed. Does he mean mentally or phisacally because if he means mentally thats gonna take a long time. I see a figure I can't make it out I wanna scream but I can't what the fuck is wrong with me then I hear the voice scream for the doctor I wanna scream too but....I can't the doctors rush in and try to calm me whats wrong the doctors say and the figure replies her thought are killing her I black out.
Should I update?
