One shots

"Hopeless"

Klaw had never ran so fast in her life like now.
She had to do something.
Something to stop Simon from telling Dr. Ramsey about the Instagram photo she posted. And the reason? Simple. After Dr. Ramsey admitted to her the infamous patient Mr. Nigel Platt- nothing went normal as she thought at first. Nigel had several symptoms that none of them concluded to a specific illness but leading to more questions than answers. Again this wasn't the real problem. Nigel's attitude against her while questioning her abilities to handle this case, made her blood boiled despite she held a great poker face to him that everything seemed to go flowing. It was ironic this kind of situation happened again to her- when she confronted the mafia man Miles in her first day, the latter doing the same thing as Nigel. With all of her anger and frustration she blamed Dr. Ramsey for this and decided in a drunken state to create an emoji and to show off to people on Insta what an asshole he was. But when she got sobered like today, she was pleading that everyone would get it as joke and not something that should be taken seriously. Because it was a moment of anger okay? She didn't know how to revenge to him because he was her attending after all. She couldn't file a complaint to him. Right? After finishing this case she wanted to have a man to man talk and to understand why he assigned this kind of patient especially to her. Did she do anything wrong?
If yes, what?
Because of Dr. Banerji's secret?
Her mind was fogged up with lots of questions while she was running in the halls of fifth floor- where his office was. When she turned the corner she bumped into nurse Sarah and apologised.
"Sarah do you know where's Dr. Tennant?"
"Oh. I saw him with Dr. Ramsey while exiting the Diagnostics Office."
"Shit."
"Something wrong Dr. Craig?"
But Sarah didn't have an answer as she saw the young intern run again. Klaw knew where the diagnostics was and her breath hitched when she saw the two doctors conversing with each other in such seriousness that made her shivering from fear. Then she saw Simon slipping from his white coat his phone and telling something to Ethan. But before that she lunged forward while shouting.
"STOP!"
Both attendees flinched when they heard her frantic voice and saw her raised hands while shaking. They frowned in confusion at her as the baritone voice asked.
"Dr. Craig what is this? Another stunt of yours?"
"No no please just hear me out because I know that I owe you an apology Dr. Ramsey."
He raised a cold eyebrow. As always he would never change that reflex she thought. "Pray, tell."
"Well... I think that you're quite aware now what I've done so far and... I'm truly sorry for that. I mean... who in the world does the mockery of someone in social media that everyone starts to make fun of it? Me with a whiskey around yesterday decided to throw that thing but I fully regret it. So... I'm saying it again Dr. Ramsey that I'm sorry I posted that photo on Instagram and I promise to delete that immediately."
"What's that photo?" He asked in confusion while shaking his head. "Because I didn't get this Rookie. Would you like to explain to me what the hell is even the Insane thing?"
"But weren't you seeing it with Dr. Tennant right now? He was showing it to-"
"Uhm-" Simon cleared his throat. "Klaw, I was showing Ethan the tomography of our patient after we diagnosed him." He turned his phone to her and immediately she wanted nothing more than to burn herself or hide somewhere because now she felt so screwed. "I wasn't going to tell him y'know." Then he snorted when he finally realised what her intention was.
"Excuse me, can someone right now tell me what in the hell is going on?" Ethan glared at them when he felt his anger building up seeing the interaction between these two and the fact that they were sharing a secret made him raged.
The young doctor gulped hardly when she lit up her phone, opened the app and showed it to her attending. But what made Ethan even more angry despite he was remaining calm all the time was the description she had written:

Ladies and gentlemen I present to you the icy blue-eyed Dr. Ethan Ramsey in his usual mood- killing the interns.

Even though it may sounded funny to someone's else ears, he wasn't killing anyone. Especially when he wanted to push her to be the best doctor and to learn by hard. But clearly to him, maybe it was a mistake for picking her so that was his final straw.
"My office."
He gave her phone back while trailing off and Simon gave her an encouragement smile as if meaning that it was the usual one of the many Dr. Ramsey's moods but for Klaw this was unusual.
Ethan didn't even let the door open for her as he did always and slammed it forcefully in her face. And that was her final straw.
"What the fuck?!"
"Language Craig!"
"Do you even know moral codes or what?"
"I'm not going to learn from you because you clearly have absolutely no knowledge about them."
"Are you really worried for such a stupid little thing? I told you I was drunk!"
"Do you really think that I care that much for an animated figure which clearly doesn't represent me but just another stupid jokes of yours?"
"Well my jokes are better than your dryly and sophisticated ones." He scoffed unbelievably, not seeing that his words were actually hurting her. "I want to be taken off the PITA's case because in my opinion there's nothing left for me to do with a man who doesn't respect me as a doctor and doesn't acknowledge my work showing his belligerency and rudeness."
So that's why she was angry at him. But that didn't even make him change his mind. He wasn't surprised to see her in this state of rage and for a mere of seconds he thought how cute she looked when she was serious and flushed. Ethan gave her an unamused smile, not interested in what she just said. "No."
"I beg your pardon?" Her right pupil dilated slightly while she was frowning.
"You've had difficult patients before. Keep trying."
His calmness was making her even more furious and before she could stop herself she came forward and slapped her hands in his desk, while facing him with a shaking breath. This of course caught him off guard and stood up from his chair doing the same as her.
"What do you think you're doing?"
"Why are you punishing me?"

I'm not punishing you. I would never do that.

"Or is my saying right- that you enjoy to kill interns and make us suffer huh? Do you enjoy that?"
"You need to keep your personal feelings separate from your professional feelings Dr. Craig." She tried to reply but was cut off. "I'd think very carefully before you say something to embarrass yourself."
"Then why have you selected me this patient? For what reason?!"
"To challenge you, to push you to be the best doctor you can be! Don't you get it already?"
Despite the closed door their voices could be heard loud and clear from outside. Their faces were in a close proximity without breaking their gazes to each other. Icy blue could see in dark fiery browns the embarrassment and the astonishment when she received his words. She understood now. It was never about Naveen's secret that they were sharing. It was about her development that even after all of this he still thought of her.
For her best.
As a real attending should.
He sat on his chair with his crossed arms whereas she backed off a bit from his desk only to hear disappointment from him.
"When I make my evaluations every year... every intern that I've chosen were the best amongst the best and for that-" he flickered his eyes to her again with the coldest expression on his face that she had ever seen and shivered. "- I believed I saw a potential in you. It's very rare that I'm wrong Rookie. But I'm willing to admit when I am... and I think I might have been wrong about you."
The final words left her not only speechless but also breathtaking. She couldn't feel her lungs  as if everything stopped in that moment. Her heartbeats were giving her aches in her chest as she stared right back into his eyes- regret and pain. Ethan Ramsey regretted his intern right in front of her just like a slap in her face. That was the final cue from him that she wasn't the best intern he had thought because this intern (she) had let him down.
Klaw shifted her left shoulder and broke eye contact with him while Ethan quirked sadly his mouth knowing her fully well anytime she got that nervousness. He got used to her and he hoped that these words would encourage to be better or otherwise- worse than now.
Deeply ashamed she couldn't say another word and left his office without glancing back. She was determined to solve that case whatever that brat had and to prove once again that Dr. Craig or Rookie was the best intern he had chosen for the program.
Ethan sighed heavily when he opened his drawer to reveal her file that was the first of many others and stared down at her CV photograph that showed- bravery.
"You can do this Klaw." He whispered to himself and for the first time he said her name which in Ethan's horror wasn't something good. He closed the file with a thud and put it back on his drawer while getting up from his chair to take a look in the window. He could feel his heartbeats quickening when he saw Klaw leaving with his patient Kyra who was trying to console her. At least she had friends to look after her.

Stop it Ethan. Stop thinking about her.

Reluctantly he pulled away from the window to busy himself with other important tasks so he would forget about piercing brown eyes.