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Blankly staring at my wall I was still processing what just happened.

I really did it... I broke up with him

With that I can say goodbye to any people that respected me in school.

He was like my popularity pass , people started caring about me the moment they heard we're dating...
I guess that makes sense but I never cared about popularity, I mean it sure was nice to have friends for once... But besides that I really did love him..

But now it's over.Everything is over.
For good.

Suddenly I hear the door opening.
It's my mom...
Great exactly what I needed..

-what's going on , you look like you haven't slept all night. Oh don't tell me you were crying again.. -

thanks for the encouraging words mom..

-yes I wa-  -

-I knew it! But why now? We're on a vacation!Are you not happy , is this not enough for you?
You could at least appreciate it a little y/n
Your father and I spent a ton of money on this trip. -

-no that's not it, I actually broke up with-

She cut me off again

-I don't really care about your love life and you know that. Just try and don't ruin this for your brother okay?
He's been so excited to go and if you make him worry about you it's not going to end well, understood? -

Why even bother asking if you don't care?
she's like that.. She never cares about what I do... It's always my brother

-okay im sorry-

I said wiping my eyes. My heart was still pounding like crazy I felt like I might start crying again.
But I can't... Not in front of her

-how about you stay home today? You would do all of us a favor, I doubt anyone wants to see you like that...
What do you think? -

She's right. No one likes having me around when I'm sad. And I don't blame them.

-yeah  I will-

-wonderful! -

She said closing the door behind her.
Few minutes after that I heard all 3 of them talking and then door closing.

They left . They're probably going to the beach.

Again without me.. who cares about me anyway, I'm sure they'll have a lot of fun  without me. Just them like dad always wanted...

tears were forming in my eyes again.
Why am i crying? It's always like this..
I'm used to it by now... They always act like I don't even exist.

I'm gonna go crazy if I just sit in my room and cry all day.
Maybe I should go around the hotel, go for a walk... Anything just so I get my mind off of all this.

11:25

I changed my clothes
I'm gonna burn alive in this but at least it's covering my arms..
I don't like people staring at my scars.
It's like that's all they see.

I grab my phone and head out.
Where am I going? Who knows.

I've decided that I'm just gonna let my legs take me somewhere.