𝐓𝐞𝐥𝐥 𝐌𝐞 : Junjou Romantica x F!Reader

𝐂𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝟔 | 𝐓𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐈'𝐦 𝐓𝐨𝐨 𝐒𝐜𝐚𝐫𝐞𝐝

༻✦༺ 　༻✧༺　༻✦༺

Y/n threw the book across her room, 'If I hadn't brought that book with me then none of this would have happened!' She cursed at herself, ignoring the fact Usagi snooped through her stuff. Another violation of her privacy. Her phone blasted with text messages from Olivia and a few from Misaki. She wasn't in the right state of mind to even think kindly about them or even anything. She just wanted to be left alone, wallowing in her guilt.

'The amount of times I've lied to myself everything would be alright, they'll come around to their senses. It was all just lies to prove how broken I am. How desperate I am to look like something or to be worth something in their eyes. I'm ashamed of everything I've done.'

She falls back on her bed, fresh new tears start pouring down. She covers her face with her hands, her breath shaking, how she wishes she could just go back and apologize for all shit she has now caused. Now Misaki would think she can't be trusted, how there are more secrets about her than ever. She forced her hand to move to her phone. A single voicemail from Misaki.

'I know you wouldn't want to talk to me but I only have one question to ask... are you still scared? Do you not trust me? What about our talk when we'll do in the future, did you not tell me because you didn't know? Were you scared? Do you not trust me? What about when we spent time after school? Hours reading in the library? Outside? Anything? Did you not trust me then? What was it to you? What went through your head as we talked together?'

Her desire to run back and say it wasn't true was hitting her right now. She shut off her phone and pushed it to the side, forgetting all about it now. There was no way for her to explain all of that, there was no way to make him believe it was all fake. She curled in her bed, those words circling around her head. Spinning and spinning and spinning, over and over again.

There was no point in trying to apologize to him anymore, he has his thoughts of her now, it's only a matter of time before he rethinks this friendship. Before he decides he doesn't want to see her anymore. It's like... no matter where she goes everything from the past will follow. It was her fault from the start, she chose not to tell Misaki, not to tell anyone. As if she couldn't trust him.

Misaki knew what he was getting into, he understood why she kept her last name a secret, he was fine with her coming from a wealthy family but once he learned that she couldn't or didn't trust him hurt. It was all so confusing, he was confused. There was no reason for him to be mad or was there? All of it couldn't make sense. She did trust him and it was all just a crazy dream he was having. Nothing makes sense anymore. Was she completely honest? No she was! She told him everything! Misaki groaned loudly, everything was getting mixed up together, questions and thoughts were constantly running into each other making no sense.

He felt guilty sending that voicemail, it made him fight with his feelings. There was no reason for her to run because Misaki knew he didn't care but Usagi wasn't. Usagi was always wary of her, and didn't trust her from the start. He pushed himself off the bed and ran down the stairs where Usagi was smoking his cigarette, "We need to talk."

༻✦༺ 　༻✧༺　༻✦༺

I've decided to give some Angst and make some things confusing. If you are confused then it worked! I feel like that sounds rude. I would explain but I also confused myself...

Another thing I'd like to talk about is the timeline of this book -

The book starts at the beginning of the series, up to chapter 4 or 5 is where we get mid way during season 1. Yeah quick I know...
I plan to drag a few chapters out so it will be longer. Meaning it would still be around 600+ words but more chapters before getting into season 1.
Any questions then feel free to let me know!!

Anyways I hope you enjoyed reading today's chapter, a new one will come tomorrow or later this week. I hope you're taking care of yourselves, see ya~