What Happened? (Ziall & Lirry Fanfic)

Chapter 4: The Brink of Death

Zayn POV:

“Wait so you don’t hate me?” Harry says with sad eyes.

“No”

“But I am gay, I freaking am in love with Liam!” Okay then… Liam. He is quite fit, and he is smart and nice and never does anything wrong, I honestly think Haz and him would make quite the couple.

“It’s okay, do you want to know why I bully Niall now?”

“Um sure…”

“It’s because I love him, I am gay too.” It took me quite a long time to admit that too myself, I feel better because of it. But all I can think of now is Lou, and what he would think if both his best mates were gay? Would he hate us forever? Or would he be chill?

“What really?”

“Yeah, and now that I have finally admitted that to myself I feel terrible for what I did today.”

“What did you do Zayn?” Harry says panicking.

Niall POV:

When I got home I found a CD slipped into my bag, all it said was “watch it “

I slipped the disc into my computer and pressed play.

“Hey Niall” it began, it was Zayn, why did he leave me a video?

“Since you are watching this let me get something straight, you’re a faggot. You always have been and you always will be. Considering I go over to your house quite a bit I seem to have found this.”

He was holding up my diary… my fucking diary… That was the thing that had all my secrets, things about me and Liam, photos of me and Liam.

“So with all of this juicy information I decided to make this and i hope you know if you ever show you faggot ass around school again you are going to wish you were dead.”

He showed a picture of to the screen, a collage of photos and my diary entries, what was he going to do with those? I started trembling, I was scared and hurt and I felt useless, maybe he was right, maybe I did deserve to die.

I open my draw to find my razor blades. I press the steel to my skin, smelling the iron of the blood seeping out, this time there is no turning back, I am going deep.

I keep on sawing into my arm making a word on either side, it was difficult and soon after I couldn’t feel anything at all, I was fading away, fading into the darkness, I was going, I was almost gone.