It's January 3rd , the first day back from winter break. I walk through the halls I see the same face smiling at me like they always did, acting as if nothing happened last October. How do they not notice? How do they not care? I smile back to my classmates, but behind this painted face I'm screaming in inside, destroyed from what had happened. Thinking to myself ,"If only I listened." I'm Derek and this is my story, no Liam' story.
It's was the first official day of fall, September 22nd. I walk through the halls as if I'm king of my palace, or high school, everyone turns to shout out my name, the girls say I have beautiful blue eyes, the color of sapphires and Black shaggy hair soft like a baby. I hurry to my locker to find my girlfriend, Liah standing there waiting. She had sandy blonde hair that had spirals all the way down to her back, and hazel eyes that glowed perfectly like embers of a fire. Don't get me wrong Liah was a beautiful girl, she just wasn't my type. She also had a brother, his name was Liam. They were twins and like most sibling, they had very similar features. Liam had a little darker blonde hair short and spiked and blue eyes that pierce right through your soul. So blue they reminded you of a summer sky. As I open my locker Liah asks " Hey hun, do you think you could come over tonight and help me with my English? I need someone to edit my paper." "uh...Yeah sure, I'll be over at five." I quickly muffled and went to class.
Later that day I drove over in my 1996 black Chevy truck, as I arrive Liah was already waiting on the porch swing with her laptop, she was wearing a white dress that flowed in the wind. " oh hey, come check this out! I think my paper sounds pretty good" exclaimed Liah. Her paper didn't really catch my attention. My mind was so clouded I couldn't focus, but I skimmed through it anyway. After about two hours of correction her paper she asked me what was wrong. I must have looked very anxious for her to actually worry about something beyond herself. "Yeah, I'm okay... I .. I just need to ask Liam something about history, then ill head out okay?" I pecked her on her cheek and darted to his room. When I walked in I still remember what he was wearing, a tight red shirt and black jeans. I barely could say hello before he pulled me to him and locked his lips to mine. I pushed him on to his bed and kissed him deeper. Oh how I missed his sweet embrace. After several minutes we came up for air and I held him to me. He felt so warm in my arms, I'll never forget the feeling he gave me. His face has a glum look upon it. "what's troubling your thoughts my love?" I asked sweetly.
"Don't worry about it... its nothing..."
"To late, I'm worried about it. what is it?"
A tear streamed down his face as he whispered "I'm just... I'm tired of being nothing but a secret to you..."
"I... It's just, if the team knows everything will be ruined. Football is my life. If they find out all of that will be taken away and my hopes for a scholarship are ruined." I pleaded
"yeah yeah I get it! You've told me every time I ask this. Sometimes I wonder if it would be better if I disappeared, maybe then your life would be easier..."
"Not at all! I love you! I just do-
"If you loved me you would show the word! Liam interrupted then whispered "Just go"
I stormed into my truck and drove off, the scent of crushed leaves filled my nose and the beautiful scenery of autumn calmed me down. Each leaf on the trees were different colors of; yellows, oranges and reds. As I speed down my I think to myself "Who knew death could be so beautiful." After several hours of driving, hoping he would call me to come back I finally went home. I gave in and messaged him. He read my message with no reply. At the time I thought "I'll just give him time to realize how important football is to me" thinking back to that moment I realize how selfish I was, I show have been proving my love to him in every way possible.
