Couple months later she had started pulling her hair out her head.
We went to Kosovo to my family and there i got a aniexty attack i didn't notice since I thought I was normal i pulled my hair out but no like out out because I was a someone else house eventually my cousin noticed and said what are you doing to your hair me not even realizing i did that said I don't know and went on with my phone.
I still pulled my hair my little sister told me to stop she finds it annoying as if I can do anything about it eventually my cousin started texting me I found it weird as she sat in the same room as me she told me come we are going upstairs i went with her and she asked me are you okay i started crying and we went to my bedroom as she held me like I was a sort of a baby it felt nice we started talking btw i never met them until now and she and I didn't really speak but now we did i didn't tell her about why i felt this way she asked and said tell me when you are ready to talk but when I started i almost cried again so she told me to not go through with the story so she was telling me story's trying to calm me down and then she asked what do you do normally in this situation i told her you don't wanna know i was pulling my hair again as she stopped me telling me don't do that you have beautiful hair don't ruin it and the i started making little scars with my fake nails she stopped me and told me she didn't really know what to do but still helped me.
5 days later i felt empty and started looking for something sharp as I walked in the kitchen i felt like I couldn't do it because it was there house there was like a cabinet with knifes and started cutting my leg.
