A Few Weeks

Chapter 9

Y/N was sitting in her room, scared to open the letters. But she knew she had to see what they said. Finally, she felt safer in her room, curled in a ball in the corner of her window seat. She grabbed Chris's first took a deep breathe and read:

Y/N,

I never meant to make you feel like I was saying you would blindly follow me. What I said was so far off from what I meant. When I said those things about movies and shows - I meant I didn't want to watch without you. You are absolutely incredible. I know I messed up by saying those things. I wanted to think you felt the same way about me that I feel about you. Princess, you are one in a million. Don't know when you leave but I leave in 3 days. I know I messed up, and I want to give you space, but I would like the opportunity to talk this through.

-Chris

Y/N let out a breath she didn't know she was holding. He had been wrong to say that, and she knew he realized how it had come across, but if she was brutally honest with herself, she didn't feel that way about him. She loved watching movies and catching up on shows, but Chris had felt something special at that moment, and she hadn't. It had been fun, and she cared about him deeply but not in the way Chris did. She knew she would have to talk to him, but she needed to read the other letters first. The next one she grabbed was Sebastian's.

Hi Darling,

I wish I could take it back. I know what I said was awful. I guess I'm not as smooth as I would like to like and made a pretty big ass of myself. But, please know what I meant by that was I care for you, and I am honored that you let me spend time with you. I want so badly to run to you and tell you how wrong I was, but I know you have a lot to sort through and do, and I don't want to worsen the situation.

Sebastian

Y/N huffed to herself in disbelief. How was it that she had these three men falling for her when she normally couldn't keep one date to stick around? But like with Chris's letter, she knew deep down that Sebastian wasn't it for her. He had become her best friend. He had made her laugh and feel safe. She wanted the relationship fixed so she could have her friend back.

Y/N started to feel guilty as she thought through everything. Doubt started racing through her mind. Had she led them on? They had never talked about the situation. Should they have? She had thought they needed to since they were them and she was a nobody. Not to put herself down by any means, but Chris had dated women like Jessica Biel and Lily James. Tom had dated Taylor Swift and Elizabeth Olsen. She certainly had set herself up to expect anything to come of all of this, and she felt absolutely terrible about it. She had one more letter left, though, and she knew it would hurt the most. Tom's.

Sunflower,

I am sorry. Please allow me to say this to you in person.

Tom

Not sure how to process this last letter and being exhausted from the day Y/N placed the letters on the nightstand, let go of the tears, and crawled into bed.

The following day Y/N had come to realize three things. First, she didn't want to leave on bad terms with any of the men. Secondly, she had to be honest in telling Chris and Sebastian how she felt even if it didn't match how they felt and apologize for miscommunicating what it was. And finally, that Tom was right, her head and heart did belong to him or at least was beginning to, but she couldn't hand over the rest now that the damage was done.

She walked to Chris's room. First, he opened the door and looked hopefully as he started what was undoubtedly a long speech about being sorry and upset. But Y/N interrupted him as she walked over and sat on the bed.