Not a Nobody (Short Story Compilation)

Nobody

Inspired by: out of my league animation by nanao chu

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I have no chance to be with her. All I can do is just to glance her from afar.
Palagi ko siya tinitingnan. Bawat anggulo ng katawan niya alam ko na.
Kahit nakatalikod siya. Alam kong siya yun.
Tanongin niyo man ako kung mahal ko siya? ang sagot ko'y 'hindi ko alam'
Tinanong ko si mama kung MAHAL na ba ang nararamdaman ko. But she only answer's "You cant love a person you dont even know or haven't be with her"

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it's her hair and her eyes today
that just simply take me away
and the feeling that I'm falling further in love
makes me shiver but in a good way
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So, I still can't say what I felt for her. Kahit hindi ako sigurado kung ano nga ba ang tamang tawag sa kung ano ang nararamdaman ko sa kanya.

Gusto ko lang makita siyang masaya.

Gusto ko lang makita siya palagi, hindi makukumpleto araw ko pag hindi ko siya makikita lalo na kung sabado't linggo o sa bakasyon.

She's a Junior. I'm a Senior. but who am I? I'm just a geek student with a messy hair and old fashion sense.

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all the times I have sat and stared
as she thoughtfully thumbs through her hair
and she purses her lips, bats her eyes as she plays,
with me sitting there slack-jawed and nothing to say
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I felt nervous when she's near

I felt JOY when she's around

I felt LOW when I can't see her

I felt Victorious when she's looking at my way.

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coz I love her with all that i am
and my voice shakes along with my hands
coz she's all that I see and she's all that I need
and I'm out of my league once again
~~~

I'm watching a program. And it's her and her Boyfriend sings for her. The song that express what I felt for her. And also her boyfriend feels for her.

Sana ako nalang ang kumakanta diyan. Sana ako nalang ang boyfriend niya. Sana ako nalang. SANA.

Valentines ngayon.

Gusto ko din sana kantahan din siya, kaso paano ko naman magagawa yun kung everytime I'm near her. Kinakabahan naman ako. nauutal. natatakot. Isama mo pa ang kadahilanan na palagi niyang kasama ang Boyfriend niya. Palaging may kasama. Palaging mag bakod.

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it's a masterful melody
when she calls out my name to me
as the world spins around her she laughs, rolls her eyes
and i feel like i'm falling but it's no surprise
~~~

Natatakot na baka pag ginawa kong lumapit sa kanya e hindi niya ako pansinin.

Natatakot na baka pag kausapin ko siya, babarahin niya lang ako

Natatakot na baka marinig niya ang tibok ng puso kong kinakabahan sa tuwing siya ay malapit.

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coz i love her with all that i am
and my voice shakes along with my hands
cause it's frightening to be swimming in this strange sea
but i'd rather be here than on land
yes she's all that i see and she's all that i need
and i'm out of my league once again
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