The Deli

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Oreo Milkshake with a hint of Fudge

tw- mental health mentioned

I had woken up the next afternoon. This time it was different. I had fell asleep thinking about my encounter with Sydney and woke up still thinking about it. This time instead of sulking about Mackenzie until my 4pm shift, I actually got up, showered, ate and interacted with my parents. This wasn't because of Sydney, but also because of my idea on what to do. I was actually feeling nervous about something for once, I was actually interested in my day playing out till I go on break during my shift. Mackenzie never really crossed my mind before I went to work. Yeah I snapped her, texted her, checked what she sent me on tik tok. Never did I think about what Mackenzie and I could've been at that moment.

It was weird. I went from being depressed, hopeless, emotionless, to actually feeling something for once. Why the fuck was she in my head just constantly since the interaction. Yeah she's cute or whatever but I see cute people all the time. I don't get why I was so worried. I didn't even know why I was going through with my plan. She is an average looking girl. Dirty Blonde hair, Brown eyes, around the same height as me. She is my type but like I said, I could run into someone my type once and they would never cross my mind again. I guess it was because she actually was interested in still talking to me after my multiple hints that I didn't want to talk? Maybe because when I entered the Deli it went from a loud stressful kitchen to an empty quiet restaurant? Maybe she actually recognized me? There could be a lot of reasons why she stuck out to me yet I couldn't figure out the true reason why. So, I just told myself it's because she had a good attitude with me and I needed someone like that in my life which is why I was set on getting her snap.

Almost every friend I have let into my life, they  were pretty shitty people. Used me to get high, used me for nicotine, used me to get them drugs. It was either that or they would see I had a hard time saying "no" and used that until they didn't need me anymore. All the racist comments made to me, all the poor jokes made, all the gay jokes made, all of them lowered my standards with friends. Bare minimum to me in a friend is, they at least snap you, hangout with you and joke around either at you or with you. Not to guilt trip anybody reading this, but I was treated more of an object than a person, let's put it that way. Not to mention the physical abuse I had from these friends whenever I did say "no" to something i was highly uncomfortable doing. Pleasing people so they can like me was just a normal thing in my life.

I got to work that day wanting time to pass. I knew I was getting a break and that's all I waited for. Time went by slowly that day, everytime I looked at the clock after a rush, it was only about 30 minutes later. Rush after Rush, I saw my co workers go on break.

"Lacey how you holding up bro!" said my co worker Anna.

"Jesus fucking christ Anna don't sneak up on me like that" I replied

"Haha. You've been quiet all day what's on your mind Lacey. I can tell either something is making you nervy or uncomfortable"

"Don't tell anybody but Im about to shoot my shot with this girl at the Deli. Im just waiting for fucking Shawn to let me break so I can go over there and get it over with"

"Well its around 7 and that's when they send a big group of people on break. How about this I'll tell Shawn I will break you and you go over and shoot your shot only if you tell me how this new romance goes"

"Haha shut up. Just like everyone else i've tried to talk too, maybe she couldn't compare to my last relationship with Mackenzie"